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Hey guys! In a week I'm moving into my first ever apartment all to myself!! .. plus 3 roommates. But that's even better because I think I would cry myself to sleep every night if I lived by my self.
Ok. I love my mom. She's the best. She is probably one of the few people I can be completely honest with. She's helping me a lot with school, and like, you know, being able to afford it. But does that give her the right to treat me like shit and expect me to kiss her feet? I get that I need to do nice things for her and all that, it's just really hard to do when she freaks out whenever we see each other.
I get that I'm in the "IM FREEEEEE!" zone and am trying to push away, and that it's probably causing a lot of her needing to control me/ anxiety. But FORREAL!! What am I supposed to doooo??
On another note: One kid I knew in high school died. We weren't close at all, but it's just like.. daaayum. It gives me perspective knowing people my age just kind of go through life hoping a bullet doesn't hit them, watching their friends drop like flies.
I kind of always thought I was in the heart of it all. I live a 5 minute drive from the iron triangle, I went to school in Oakland.. all that. And it's scary to think I've seen a lot more than other people, but not even a little bit of what some of my friends have seen. I just kind of realized that, and I feel really shitty for being so ignorant and righteous about it.
Ok. I love my mom. She's the best. She is probably one of the few people I can be completely honest with. She's helping me a lot with school, and like, you know, being able to afford it. But does that give her the right to treat me like shit and expect me to kiss her feet? I get that I need to do nice things for her and all that, it's just really hard to do when she freaks out whenever we see each other.
I get that I'm in the "IM FREEEEEE!" zone and am trying to push away, and that it's probably causing a lot of her needing to control me/ anxiety. But FORREAL!! What am I supposed to doooo??
On another note: One kid I knew in high school died. We weren't close at all, but it's just like.. daaayum. It gives me perspective knowing people my age just kind of go through life hoping a bullet doesn't hit them, watching their friends drop like flies.
I kind of always thought I was in the heart of it all. I live a 5 minute drive from the iron triangle, I went to school in Oakland.. all that. And it's scary to think I've seen a lot more than other people, but not even a little bit of what some of my friends have seen. I just kind of realized that, and I feel really shitty for being so ignorant and righteous about it.