eh...
well at least my brother thinks I am doing ok....
-by the way he is now bipolar, and exceling beyond the annoyance of fucking napolean.....
I hagve a job at EJ's in the mall.... I work with Liz, Evelyne,Rozalyne, and some new chick who replaced Emily......
Right now I can't fucking think
actually I can think.... and that's probably what is getting to me....
With boys I just think I am completely incapable of keeping one around.... I guess they hit it an quit it ...
I would to- I mean come on, look at me..
Not-to-mention I have today, friday off, and I am sitting at home typing away on the fucking computer...
lame huh???
so my dad doesn't really like me I don't think, yet again when has he ever?
my mom's fucking mood swings are about as swift and brisk as a fucking pendualum.... and eh,...... I don't like myself right now....
I am ugly... I cannot choose a fucking haircolor, let alone a personality to stick with,.....meghan is drifting away from me and I have no clue whether or not to hold onto her or let her go......
letting her go would probably be best for her, I'm a bitch of a best friend,
but still I want to be selfish and keep her with me,,....... I don't want to move on from this friendship like all the others.....
this one was different.....I mean I have never appreciated one nearly as much.....
and I feel all this and I am still to chicken to mention it to her....... well of course not, she could do better.....
my grades are plumating...... and I am trying to raise them up but it prevails as a bitch of a chore......
ugvh fuck I hate my rants..... but I have to vent somewhere somehow.....
-by the way he is now bipolar, and exceling beyond the annoyance of fucking napolean.....
I hagve a job at EJ's in the mall.... I work with Liz, Evelyne,Rozalyne, and some new chick who replaced Emily......
Right now I can't fucking think
actually I can think.... and that's probably what is getting to me....
With boys I just think I am completely incapable of keeping one around.... I guess they hit it an quit it ...
I would to- I mean come on, look at me..
Not-to-mention I have today, friday off, and I am sitting at home typing away on the fucking computer...
lame huh???
so my dad doesn't really like me I don't think, yet again when has he ever?
my mom's fucking mood swings are about as swift and brisk as a fucking pendualum.... and eh,...... I don't like myself right now....
I am ugly... I cannot choose a fucking haircolor, let alone a personality to stick with,.....meghan is drifting away from me and I have no clue whether or not to hold onto her or let her go......
letting her go would probably be best for her, I'm a bitch of a best friend,
but still I want to be selfish and keep her with me,,....... I don't want to move on from this friendship like all the others.....
this one was different.....I mean I have never appreciated one nearly as much.....
and I feel all this and I am still to chicken to mention it to her....... well of course not, she could do better.....
my grades are plumating...... and I am trying to raise them up but it prevails as a bitch of a chore......
ugvh fuck I hate my rants..... but I have to vent somewhere somehow.....