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I've chastised you for too long.
It's been half a year now, and I just want to forget it ever happened but I have trouble doing so. I've forgiven the other party and we get along now. But you, I can't bring myself to forgive you. I mean, I would, it's not like I'm mad anymore, but I can't face you.
I've banished you from my existence, for making a mistake. For being human.
It isn't a big deal anymore.
For too long now I've lashed out at your memory and hated your image in my computer screen.
But someone helped me realize that lashing out that way was what I needed to do to break the bond I had built to you. I would have done anything for you, I forgave every sin and let myself become vulnerable in doing so. When you finally did something that hurt me enough, I went crazy. I immediately regretted it but I've stuck to my guns, because it is what I needed to do. I was so crazy about you, I needed to get away, and make myself feel righteous in doing so.
But it's over now.
I may never talk to you again, and you may not want to talk to me, but I forgive you.
As hard as it is and whether or not I really want to, it is time.
I FORGIVE YOU
It's been half a year now, and I just want to forget it ever happened but I have trouble doing so. I've forgiven the other party and we get along now. But you, I can't bring myself to forgive you. I mean, I would, it's not like I'm mad anymore, but I can't face you.
I've banished you from my existence, for making a mistake. For being human.
It isn't a big deal anymore.
For too long now I've lashed out at your memory and hated your image in my computer screen.
But someone helped me realize that lashing out that way was what I needed to do to break the bond I had built to you. I would have done anything for you, I forgave every sin and let myself become vulnerable in doing so. When you finally did something that hurt me enough, I went crazy. I immediately regretted it but I've stuck to my guns, because it is what I needed to do. I was so crazy about you, I needed to get away, and make myself feel righteous in doing so.
But it's over now.
I may never talk to you again, and you may not want to talk to me, but I forgive you.
As hard as it is and whether or not I really want to, it is time.
I FORGIVE YOU