To all my friends, old and new. please read.
Have you ever had so many different things that you wanted to say to so many different people, but knew there wasn't nearly enough time, nor words?
Thats exactly how I've been feeling today.
So instead of trying to message every single one of you, I decided to do just write one massive note. I will say certain things to certain people, but for the most part ... this is for all of you ... old and new ... friends that I am gifted with everyday of my life ... and some who have fallen away through the years. This will be a little long, but please read it all. I need you guys to read and understand all of this.
To all my friends :
First things first, your all beautiful and unique in your own, weird, ways. I know everyone says that ... but if you really reflect on yourselves, you'll find what I'm talking about.
You've all seperately held my hand and helped me through the walk of life so far, and some of you are still currently holding my hand ((ie. andrew, katie, micah, nate, kara, jonny, mybug, and a few others.)) You have no idea just how much you guys really mean to me.
Now's the part where I'll say things I feel I need to say to certain people :
To Katie : You don't need someone to complete you. You don't need someone to tell you things you already know. I'm always here for you, and your beautiful on the inside and out. Don't worry so much about finding yourself and what you want to do. When your ready, it'll just come. Have fun, lifes too short to worry. Your awesome, so don't let people bring you down. :]
To Andrew : Even if you haven't realized it, you've helped me in a big way. I think I've been holding your hand the absoulte tightest because I know that you'll never judge, and always accept me just the way I am. I've needed you, and you've been there. Your an amazing friend, and an even more amazing person. I can't wait to see what you do with your life, because I know its going to be something amazing!
To Jonny : If your not sure, then don't do it. I know you can do anything you set your mind to, and I'll always support you in anything that you do. Your an amazingly brilliant person, and you need to give yourself more credit for that. You've been my rock for the past 2 years, now I want to be yours. I love you more then you'll ever know.
To Noah : God I miss you terribly! Its been too long, and the distance between us is deffinitely putting a strain on our friendship. But I will always be here for you, no matter how far away I am.
To my Sebring friends : I miss all of youuuuuu! Even if I'm not the best at keeping in touch ((and neither are you guys ; P)), you guys are always on my mind. You were my friends and closest companions for years, and I will repay all of you. I promise that.
To my new friends here in Sarasota : you guys have all been so supportive, and helped me through alot. My life has just been one huge roller coaster ride, and you guys have never left me to try and defeat it all by myself. You've chosen your words carefully, and instilled thoughts and ideas into my mind that I never would've come up with on my own. You've helped me to find the lighter side of things, and helped me see that theres no need to always freak out ... because things are going to happen that I can't help, and I've learned that its ok. Thank you for being such a big help in my life thus far. Please continue to be there, and I promise to stay by your sides as well.
To my darling Bug : Don't let ANY man bring you down. Don't give in to his stupid games, and his fake words. Show him its not ok to mess you around and play games. Show him you mean business! And also ... thank you. You always seem to show up at just the right moment and helped remind me that there are people in my life who care about me and what I do. Your an amazing listener, and you have incredible stories! I hope we can be friends for a very long time to come. :]
To Melissa : I miss you more then you realize. I never noticed just how much you've touched me and helped me ... until you were no longer there to hold my hand. I need you most of all. Your an amazing person, but I think you lose sight of that sometimes. Never forget everything that you've overcome, and just how strong a person you are. You give strength to others, including me. And I love you the way you are.
To Mikey : Don't let the world bring you down, man! Lifes too short to worry about everyone else's problems. Just worry about yourself first. And have funn! We're young, we're suppose to do that! But your still an awesome friend, and I can't wait to see how you amaze the world.
TO ALL MY FRIENDS : STOP WORRYING ABOUT IT! We're too damn young to be worrying over everything. Don't worry about finding yourself, or what you want to do with your life ... because those kinds of things will just come to you in time. Usually when your not even looking. We should be out enjoying ourselves, spreading the happiness and mayhem that only teenagers/young adults can. Everyones so busy wrapping themselves up in problems, that we don't seem to enjoy the things we have, or the people that touch our lives. Remeber people, we are NOT guaranteed a tomorrow! Treat every single day as if it were the last. Never leave things in a bad way either. Having a fight with your friend/family/specific other ... don't end it on a bad note. Because you never know if you'll be able to talk to that person again. Don't be afraid to reveal the real you, because people are either going to love or hate you. And the people who love you for you, are the people you want to keep. Never be afraid to stand up and fight for what you believe in! Because if you don't, then who will? Never be afraid to cry, or scream, or show just what your really feeling. We're human, and we do have crazy emotions that seem to spiral out of control sometimes. Just let it happen. The sooner you accept it, the sooner it will pass. Don't be afraid to try something new, because you may find that you like it. And never, EVER, change yourself for the benefit of others. Its unhealthy, and will only end up hurting you in the long run.
I know this has been extremely long, but please bare with me. These are all things I've been dying to say to you guys for a long time. Its just so hard finding time to do so. Or finding the right words to say. Don't be offended if you weren't mentioned ... you weren't forgotten ... these were just important things I needed to say. Theres still plenty of people that I haven't mentioned who have changed my life in some small way. And everyone of you are in my heart.
I love you all. <3
Thats exactly how I've been feeling today.
So instead of trying to message every single one of you, I decided to do just write one massive note. I will say certain things to certain people, but for the most part ... this is for all of you ... old and new ... friends that I am gifted with everyday of my life ... and some who have fallen away through the years. This will be a little long, but please read it all. I need you guys to read and understand all of this.
To all my friends :
First things first, your all beautiful and unique in your own, weird, ways. I know everyone says that ... but if you really reflect on yourselves, you'll find what I'm talking about.
You've all seperately held my hand and helped me through the walk of life so far, and some of you are still currently holding my hand ((ie. andrew, katie, micah, nate, kara, jonny, mybug, and a few others.)) You have no idea just how much you guys really mean to me.
Now's the part where I'll say things I feel I need to say to certain people :
To Katie : You don't need someone to complete you. You don't need someone to tell you things you already know. I'm always here for you, and your beautiful on the inside and out. Don't worry so much about finding yourself and what you want to do. When your ready, it'll just come. Have fun, lifes too short to worry. Your awesome, so don't let people bring you down. :]
To Andrew : Even if you haven't realized it, you've helped me in a big way. I think I've been holding your hand the absoulte tightest because I know that you'll never judge, and always accept me just the way I am. I've needed you, and you've been there. Your an amazing friend, and an even more amazing person. I can't wait to see what you do with your life, because I know its going to be something amazing!
To Jonny : If your not sure, then don't do it. I know you can do anything you set your mind to, and I'll always support you in anything that you do. Your an amazingly brilliant person, and you need to give yourself more credit for that. You've been my rock for the past 2 years, now I want to be yours. I love you more then you'll ever know.
To Noah : God I miss you terribly! Its been too long, and the distance between us is deffinitely putting a strain on our friendship. But I will always be here for you, no matter how far away I am.
To my Sebring friends : I miss all of youuuuuu! Even if I'm not the best at keeping in touch ((and neither are you guys ; P)), you guys are always on my mind. You were my friends and closest companions for years, and I will repay all of you. I promise that.
To my new friends here in Sarasota : you guys have all been so supportive, and helped me through alot. My life has just been one huge roller coaster ride, and you guys have never left me to try and defeat it all by myself. You've chosen your words carefully, and instilled thoughts and ideas into my mind that I never would've come up with on my own. You've helped me to find the lighter side of things, and helped me see that theres no need to always freak out ... because things are going to happen that I can't help, and I've learned that its ok. Thank you for being such a big help in my life thus far. Please continue to be there, and I promise to stay by your sides as well.
To my darling Bug : Don't let ANY man bring you down. Don't give in to his stupid games, and his fake words. Show him its not ok to mess you around and play games. Show him you mean business! And also ... thank you. You always seem to show up at just the right moment and helped remind me that there are people in my life who care about me and what I do. Your an amazing listener, and you have incredible stories! I hope we can be friends for a very long time to come. :]
To Melissa : I miss you more then you realize. I never noticed just how much you've touched me and helped me ... until you were no longer there to hold my hand. I need you most of all. Your an amazing person, but I think you lose sight of that sometimes. Never forget everything that you've overcome, and just how strong a person you are. You give strength to others, including me. And I love you the way you are.
To Mikey : Don't let the world bring you down, man! Lifes too short to worry about everyone else's problems. Just worry about yourself first. And have funn! We're young, we're suppose to do that! But your still an awesome friend, and I can't wait to see how you amaze the world.
TO ALL MY FRIENDS : STOP WORRYING ABOUT IT! We're too damn young to be worrying over everything. Don't worry about finding yourself, or what you want to do with your life ... because those kinds of things will just come to you in time. Usually when your not even looking. We should be out enjoying ourselves, spreading the happiness and mayhem that only teenagers/young adults can. Everyones so busy wrapping themselves up in problems, that we don't seem to enjoy the things we have, or the people that touch our lives. Remeber people, we are NOT guaranteed a tomorrow! Treat every single day as if it were the last. Never leave things in a bad way either. Having a fight with your friend/family/specific other ... don't end it on a bad note. Because you never know if you'll be able to talk to that person again. Don't be afraid to reveal the real you, because people are either going to love or hate you. And the people who love you for you, are the people you want to keep. Never be afraid to stand up and fight for what you believe in! Because if you don't, then who will? Never be afraid to cry, or scream, or show just what your really feeling. We're human, and we do have crazy emotions that seem to spiral out of control sometimes. Just let it happen. The sooner you accept it, the sooner it will pass. Don't be afraid to try something new, because you may find that you like it. And never, EVER, change yourself for the benefit of others. Its unhealthy, and will only end up hurting you in the long run.
I know this has been extremely long, but please bare with me. These are all things I've been dying to say to you guys for a long time. Its just so hard finding time to do so. Or finding the right words to say. Don't be offended if you weren't mentioned ... you weren't forgotten ... these were just important things I needed to say. Theres still plenty of people that I haven't mentioned who have changed my life in some small way. And everyone of you are in my heart.
I love you all. <3