L. O. V. E.
a simple four letter word. do we take it seriously when boys tell us they love us or should be sit there and wonder if they mean it. people tell you that boys will say anything just to get you into bed but that makes you stop in your tracks when aboy does say he loves you. it makes you wonder inside if he means it or if hes just saying it. and then it makes you wonder if you love him. why is it that when you love someone something always gets in the way of it. the military. school. old girlfriends whatever. it all gets in the way and then youre stuck right there. with nothing wrong just your mind fighting with your heart and then if you mind wins you think that you dont love him and you try to make yourself but in reality you do love him its just all the stuff that has been said keeps coming up in your mind and it makes you revolt just so you dont get hurt.
had to vent that out. but heres the real update
the 22nd(saturday) was me and jimmys two month, woot for me & jimmy. school starts the 15th of august and it sucks because im a junior again, but its also good because jimmy is also so i can keep more of an eye on him through of the school day, not that i dont trust him, i dont trust the girls and the ex's and all the wishing girls. girls at my school desperatly want him and it sucks for them because they wont get him. im gunna get into so many fights this year over him and im ready.
im trying to get home mid-october for a friend of mines baby shower, im excited!! and my birthday is the end of october.
me and jimmy want to get married but im wicked hesitant about it now. i sit down and i think about it and i realize that all my wedding plans and dreams are the same dreams and plans that i had for my wishful wedding to bobby, which i knew was never going to happen but whatever. i hate feeling this way.
im donr. i cant do this.
had to vent that out. but heres the real update
the 22nd(saturday) was me and jimmys two month, woot for me & jimmy. school starts the 15th of august and it sucks because im a junior again, but its also good because jimmy is also so i can keep more of an eye on him through of the school day, not that i dont trust him, i dont trust the girls and the ex's and all the wishing girls. girls at my school desperatly want him and it sucks for them because they wont get him. im gunna get into so many fights this year over him and im ready.
im trying to get home mid-october for a friend of mines baby shower, im excited!! and my birthday is the end of october.
me and jimmy want to get married but im wicked hesitant about it now. i sit down and i think about it and i realize that all my wedding plans and dreams are the same dreams and plans that i had for my wishful wedding to bobby, which i knew was never going to happen but whatever. i hate feeling this way.
im donr. i cant do this.