is this the way a toy feels when it's batteries run dry?
i'm in such a bad mood. i'm in a bad mood for letting myself always be in bad moods, because then whenever anyone trys to talk to me they end up feeling just as bad as i do and i don't like seeing people i care about like that. ahh. and right here is about where everyone is going to stop reading; haha yeah. just wanted to get some things that i've been wanting to say out there so opinions are strongly encouraged. and i update way too fucking much; ah sorry. but seriously, i remember thinking last year that school and just things in general would be so much better this year school is fucking sjlkdfsf. i can't stand like 99% of the kids. they're all really really immature, like beyond belief. but the girls act like it's necessary for them to tear at least one innocent person apart everyday; they all deserve to get their asses kicked like immediately. if i said i hated most of the girls i think that would be pretty accurate. it's like i've got no one to impress but i still waste my time trying to look at least decent; because i want to be able to sit there at lunch and not give a fuck about what they're saying about me. i really don't understand though; i'm a girl, i care if i match, and other pointless things like that, but my life is not run around drama and rumors and whatnot. and if i ever become like that, anyone who reads this now has my permission to beat me up and tell me i'm being a complete bitch and i need to stop.
i guess the guys aren't all that bad, considering i still love to see them outside of school i'm not going to complain. just one remark in spanish really pissed me off. someoneee who sits in front of me turns around and goes "are you proud that you're guy friends dress exactly like you? what is wearing womans clothes cool now or something?" i just felt making him cry after that. (which knowing the really fucking awesome stereotypical football playing assholes in my grade.. it wouldn't have been very hard.) i just got really pissed off, anyone who is at all different than them they feel the need to say something about. they need to realize it doesn't make anyone gain respect for them due to it. phhewww, i'm doneee. whoa. longest entry ever. i'll probably end of up deleteing this anyway.
ps- if you are in my grade and you're reading this, chances are what i said didn't apply to you.