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Well it’s 12:30 at night and I had nothing else better to do then to update my journal. Well I kind of realized that this is my last week of summer freedom before I go back to reality and wake up. I also realized that it’s time for me to grow up this year which is soooo unbelievably scary to me like I’m sitting here crying cause I’m scared and for other reason cough cough michelle lol. But I’m serious like I’ve been slapped with so much mail from colleges and my parents are on my case about college, and I’m just so scared, like is my childhood really over?! Like is this real end and I have to grow up and take responsibility? I’m not ready I’m just not, I don’t want to face the music yet……..
I just want to say something to Kelly Bain. Kel I’m soooo proud of you you have no idea, I know I said a lot in my letter and that took some hard ass time to sit down and write. I’m truly going to miss you dearly, as much as we can get on each others nerves I am extremely thankful to God for having you as a friend. You have shown me some great things and I have exprianced some amazing memories with you…I’m just hoping and praying that you wont forget me! I love ya Fucker, always and forever! So …..”please remember…”
Well I also want to say thanks to Michelle. I honestly and truly don’t thank you enough when I really should. I know you say that you need me or whatever, but the God honest truth is I need you. Before you came along I was definitely a nobody, I had no purpose in life. Not one person would give me a second glance. But then you showed up and showed me that it was alright to be a little bitchy and that it was perfectly fine to tell people how it is. And I’ve come to realize that I need a little reality check in my life once in while. And for you I’m am utterly and amazing thankful that God has put you in my life. Honestly I can’t imagine life without you in it. Cause to be perfectly frank without you in it, there would be no Jenn Sanders…I know devastating huh lol. But I am truly thankful, you are my role model, as much as your like yea ok whatever Jenn, you really are. You know when to stand your ground and even when the whole entire world is coming down on you, you still put a smile on so others wont see your hurting and you make it alright for everyone else. I really wish I could be more like you, with the determination, the drive, and the stamina (oh you like those words) to keep going with life. You’ve hit some serious bumps in the road and you still keep on managing life and putting one foot in front of the other. For that I wish I had your tolerance in life. I love you soo much and I look to up to you more than you could possible come to comphrened. You are the one person who has changed me for the better and you are the wind beneath my wings……I love you more than words can possibly say. Theses are just a few words that came to mind, but not nearly half as many words on what you mean to me!! (I hope that made sense lol) I love you Michelle Anna Krueger……….you are my big sis!!!! For now and always….
Alright now that I got that off my chest lol today was a good day. I saw Paccione and Bridge who I haven’t seen since the last day of school. Guys I missed you soo much. We had an awesome time at AppleBee’s food is soo good, especially the chocolate cake…orgasmic. The car conversations are utterly amazing, nothing compares man. And then our surprise visit to Billy was awesome too, and watching Bridg jump at the sight of a teeny tiny bug hahah priceless!!!! I love you guys and miss you, can’t wait till senior year man! It’s going to be nuts….
Alright well I think I’ve written enough and I have to get up early but I promise I’ll try to write more. Love ya all lots and lots
It must have been cold there in my shadow,
to never have sunlight on your face.
You were content to let me shine, that's your way,
you always walked a step behind.
So I was the one with all the glory,
while you were the one with all the strength.
A beautiful face without a name -- for so long,
a beautiful smile to hide the pain.
Did you ever know that you're my hero,
and ev'rything I would like to be?
I can fly higher than an eagle,
'cause you are the wind beneath my wings.
It might have appeared to go unnoticed,
but I've got it all here in my heart.
I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it,
I would be nothing with out you.
Fly, fly, fly away,
you let me fly so high.
Oh, fly, fly,
so high against the sky, so high I almost touch the sky.
Thank you, thank you, thank God for you,
the wind beneath my wings.