I want to feel better

[my_odd_life]

I know that I am comfortable with my partner(s) having other partners.

I don't know if I'm okay doing it myself.

Lately, I've felt very drained and empty. With my husband, I feel comfortable and loved, but...with the others, I don't know. My boyfriend has been distant for months, and I worry that he's not really interested any more. He's seeing someone new as of the past couple of months, and I can see they are good together. I want to encourage that, because they're good for each other, but...I felt left out before she was here, and I worry that encouraging will only help push him away.

Then again, shouldn't I let him go if it's best for him? Shouldn't I make it easier for him to go?

My submissive...I believe he wants me, I really do. I think, though, that his other partners may not be okay with it, and I feel that pressure, as I'm sure he does. I understand it, and I don't want to create problems.

Now, though, I feel so, so constrained. Should I let them go? Should I let them make a decision? Should I wait and let them talk, or bring up concerns that may just create problems?

I don't know....I don't know.