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I wish I knew what to do. My gut is twisting into knots every 2 minutes and I can't stop thinking that something extremely bad is about to happen. Perhaps I'm having an anxiety attack or something gay like that. Not to mention it's piled on top of my already profound confusion about life in general.
I have come to the conclusion that I am lonely. Like deep down I feel totally alone. I have the best friends a person could possibly have, but I don't know if anyone can understand how I feel. It is my most profound wish that I find somebody that knows what I'm going through. I have never met anyone else like me, and that scares the crap out of me. I don't want to be alone for the rest of my life. I just want to be able to be close to someone. That's all.
I wish I had someone to talk to about something, but I don't think I can even bring it up with my closest friends, yet. Actually I know exactly who I need to talk to, but not yet. I have to sort out a few things in my head first. Why can't I just read minds? Christ, that would make my life so much easier.
I need some sleep, I think.
I have come to the conclusion that I am lonely. Like deep down I feel totally alone. I have the best friends a person could possibly have, but I don't know if anyone can understand how I feel. It is my most profound wish that I find somebody that knows what I'm going through. I have never met anyone else like me, and that scares the crap out of me. I don't want to be alone for the rest of my life. I just want to be able to be close to someone. That's all.
I wish I had someone to talk to about something, but I don't think I can even bring it up with my closest friends, yet. Actually I know exactly who I need to talk to, but not yet. I have to sort out a few things in my head first. Why can't I just read minds? Christ, that would make my life so much easier.
I need some sleep, I think.