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wow, so it's been awhile dear friends. I guess i only right in this when things are going good cause when they aren't there's not much to write about. I haven't really been up to much lately. I've kinda been in a permenant down mood for a good 2 weeks. I can't stand this house i want to move out but i have no where to go. It's finanlly spring maybe now that it's brigtening up my mood will raise. School is close to being done, but not close enough. I hope i graduate... i've been staying after and putting in a little effort. It doesnt seem to even do anything. I am sick of all the teachers and mr sweet and all the god damn rules. I haven't read a horoscope of mine in the longest time, but im pretty sure by the way things are going the cancer zodiac symbol is not ment to have a week of good luck. Scratch that, they are bond to have a month of bad luck. Seriously i can only think of two good things that happened to me this month...
1) well it involved the movie constantine (even though it was a bad movie)
and today when i finally after monthes realized things will be ok... ill always be able to talk to **linda no matter what happens, and their doesnt have to be stress or tension.
yeah it's sad knowing i used to be the one being looked and cared about that way but then some things just don't work out no matter how bad you wanted them to. And for them im happy. She's Lucky. I just hope she knows how lucky.
Im so glad i have a job, if i didn't im pretty sure i would go over the edge. At least it gets me outta the house 4 more extra hours a day... and im surprsing myself with how much money i am actually putting away in the bank. I've been driving more lately... my mother realizes that it's probably a smart idea before i go to florida and smash my jeep. When i pay dad back for that... i will be sooo broke i don't even want to think about it. Im hoping i won;t have to.
I hope when i get out of highschool, i still talk to the people im close with. Unfortunatly i know thingswill change. It will be weird not being able to see them everyday in the halls. Every time i have second thoughts about leaving though i just rember what nick told me about how even though you feel like your missing out... no matter where you are all your friends are gone to and things just aren't like they were in highschool.
Easter is this weekend wicked fun... i would rather sit in my room listening to music then spending it with my family . Im going to NH though a nice resort right on the mountain with all the hook ups. And we have all weekend lift passes. Thank god dean isn't coming.
1) well it involved the movie constantine (even though it was a bad movie)
and today when i finally after monthes realized things will be ok... ill always be able to talk to **linda no matter what happens, and their doesnt have to be stress or tension.
yeah it's sad knowing i used to be the one being looked and cared about that way but then some things just don't work out no matter how bad you wanted them to. And for them im happy. She's Lucky. I just hope she knows how lucky.
Im so glad i have a job, if i didn't im pretty sure i would go over the edge. At least it gets me outta the house 4 more extra hours a day... and im surprsing myself with how much money i am actually putting away in the bank. I've been driving more lately... my mother realizes that it's probably a smart idea before i go to florida and smash my jeep. When i pay dad back for that... i will be sooo broke i don't even want to think about it. Im hoping i won;t have to.
I hope when i get out of highschool, i still talk to the people im close with. Unfortunatly i know thingswill change. It will be weird not being able to see them everyday in the halls. Every time i have second thoughts about leaving though i just rember what nick told me about how even though you feel like your missing out... no matter where you are all your friends are gone to and things just aren't like they were in highschool.
Easter is this weekend wicked fun... i would rather sit in my room listening to music then spending it with my family . Im going to NH though a nice resort right on the mountain with all the hook ups. And we have all weekend lift passes. Thank god dean isn't coming.