i dont want her to worry...
10 FAVORITES
Favorite color: uhh..i don't have one.
Favorite Food: lobster
Favorite month: december (snowboarding in ny!!! yay!)
Favorite Song: i have many.
Favorite Movie: um...today it'll have to be saw
Favorite Sport: Snowboarding and soccer of course.
Favorite Day Of the week: i love fridays....then i get to come home..and on thw weekend i can talk to my friends in ny.
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: chocolate chip cookie dough
Favorite Time of Day: prolly at about....9:30 or 10...then i can think of everyone before i'm falling asleep.
9 CURRENTS
Current Mood: really upset....i stayed home from school...i miss new york too much.
Current Taste: throw up.
Current Clothes: my pajamas
Current Desktop Picture: alicia....i miss her so much
Current Time: 12:45 in the afternoon
Current Surroundings:my dog, glass of water, and my photo album
Current Thoughts: missing everyone in new york and feeling bad that i'm in this situation i'm in.
8 FIRSTS
First Best Friend: billy scully..he still is one of my best friends
First Kiss: billy scully haha.
First Screen Name: laurat1990
First Pet: i don't remember.
First Piercing: ears
First Crush: billy scully
First CD: the spice girls..haha.
7 LASTS
Last Cigarette: uhh...2 years maybe...gross!!!!
Last Drink: june 18th, 2005 (haha)...i remember cause it was the last day i saw sum of my friends.
Last Car Ride: i rode the bus yesterday..but a car ride? hm...maybe friday?
Last Kiss: what kind?
Last Movie Seen: the longest yard
Last Phone Call: yesterday to angel....poor angel..i love her.
Last CD Played: ugh....alkaline trio....it has memories that i won't discuss..it'll make sumone uncomfortable.
6 HAVE YOU EVERS
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Guy/Girl Friends: of course..my and mike are best friends....we haven't stopped since we started.
Have You Ever Broken the Law: yes...a few times.
Have You Ever Been Arrested: no i haven't.
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: haha yes..that has its memories too.
Have You Ever Been on TV: i think i have...but i was in elementary school.
Have You Ever Kissed Someone You Didn't Know: uhh....hmm.....no i haven't...no.
5 THINGS
Thing You're Wearing: clothes...braclets...necklaces....a sad face.
Thing You've Done Today: woke up, puked, slept, talked to alicia's mom, fed the doggies, looked at pictures of friends, read old letters and goodbye cards and notes, drank sum water..took a shower....and now i'm wasting time..trying to clear my mind.
Thing You Can't Live Without: berlin, new york...mike and alicia, and memories.. soccer..snowboarding.... comfort...love..... pictures....words.....vacations to new york. I'm so ready for that... i need new york back.
Thing You Do When You're Bored: go online..and think about life. And wonder if what i do is the right thing. I don't wanna hurt anyone.
4 PLACES YOU'VE BEEN TODAY
1. My bed
2. HELL!!
3. The Bathroom
4. The computer
3 PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL ANYTHING TO
1. billy scully
2. mike
3. alicia
and probably brian.
2 CHOICES
1. Black or white: black
2. Hot or Cold: cold
1 THING YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE: before i die.... i want everyone i love to know just how much i care for them. I want to snowboard till i throw up...and play soccer till i pass out..i wanna laugh with my friends back home until i piss myself, i wanna go to greece with alicia like we say we would do in 6th grade, i want everyone i've hurt or anyone i am hurting right now to forgive me and acknowledge that i am human..and i make many mistakes. I'm sorry brian. Sorry mike. Before i die....i want my life to be FULLof happiness just as it was before i moved. I want to have friendships that last a lifetime....and love sumone much like i've loved mike for the longest time. i want no one to be angry with things that i have done to them..i want people to know that i'll be there for them. I want alicia to know that shes helped me..more than she knows....shes helped me from things that do not need to be explained.....mike...he has taught me so much. I learn so much from him. I wasn't done learning from him either. He taught me to be myself and that when life gets hard..u have to find sumthing u love to occupy ur time. he taught me that u can love sumone enough to put their needs before your own. And thats what mike does for me...and i do it for him too. i really want my life back...this isn't home. I want to be happy again before i die. I want to be home. I'm sorry brian.
i wish....she really...wouldnt worry...adn i almost cried again....reading this....i wish i could...send her back up to ny...i really do...just so she could be...with every1 she misses...im so...self-destructive...
Favorite color: uhh..i don't have one.
Favorite Food: lobster
Favorite month: december (snowboarding in ny!!! yay!)
Favorite Song: i have many.
Favorite Movie: um...today it'll have to be saw
Favorite Sport: Snowboarding and soccer of course.
Favorite Day Of the week: i love fridays....then i get to come home..and on thw weekend i can talk to my friends in ny.
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: chocolate chip cookie dough
Favorite Time of Day: prolly at about....9:30 or 10...then i can think of everyone before i'm falling asleep.
9 CURRENTS
Current Mood: really upset....i stayed home from school...i miss new york too much.
Current Taste: throw up.
Current Clothes: my pajamas
Current Desktop Picture: alicia....i miss her so much
Current Time: 12:45 in the afternoon
Current Surroundings:my dog, glass of water, and my photo album
Current Thoughts: missing everyone in new york and feeling bad that i'm in this situation i'm in.
8 FIRSTS
First Best Friend: billy scully..he still is one of my best friends
First Kiss: billy scully haha.
First Screen Name: laurat1990
First Pet: i don't remember.
First Piercing: ears
First Crush: billy scully
First CD: the spice girls..haha.
7 LASTS
Last Cigarette: uhh...2 years maybe...gross!!!!
Last Drink: june 18th, 2005 (haha)...i remember cause it was the last day i saw sum of my friends.
Last Car Ride: i rode the bus yesterday..but a car ride? hm...maybe friday?
Last Kiss: what kind?
Last Movie Seen: the longest yard
Last Phone Call: yesterday to angel....poor angel..i love her.
Last CD Played: ugh....alkaline trio....it has memories that i won't discuss..it'll make sumone uncomfortable.
6 HAVE YOU EVERS
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Guy/Girl Friends: of course..my and mike are best friends....we haven't stopped since we started.
Have You Ever Broken the Law: yes...a few times.
Have You Ever Been Arrested: no i haven't.
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: haha yes..that has its memories too.
Have You Ever Been on TV: i think i have...but i was in elementary school.
Have You Ever Kissed Someone You Didn't Know: uhh....hmm.....no i haven't...no.
5 THINGS
Thing You're Wearing: clothes...braclets...necklaces....a sad face.
Thing You've Done Today: woke up, puked, slept, talked to alicia's mom, fed the doggies, looked at pictures of friends, read old letters and goodbye cards and notes, drank sum water..took a shower....and now i'm wasting time..trying to clear my mind.
Thing You Can't Live Without: berlin, new york...mike and alicia, and memories.. soccer..snowboarding.... comfort...love..... pictures....words.....vacations to new york. I'm so ready for that... i need new york back.
Thing You Do When You're Bored: go online..and think about life. And wonder if what i do is the right thing. I don't wanna hurt anyone.
4 PLACES YOU'VE BEEN TODAY
1. My bed
2. HELL!!
3. The Bathroom
4. The computer
3 PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL ANYTHING TO
1. billy scully
2. mike
3. alicia
and probably brian.
2 CHOICES
1. Black or white: black
2. Hot or Cold: cold
1 THING YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE: before i die.... i want everyone i love to know just how much i care for them. I want to snowboard till i throw up...and play soccer till i pass out..i wanna laugh with my friends back home until i piss myself, i wanna go to greece with alicia like we say we would do in 6th grade, i want everyone i've hurt or anyone i am hurting right now to forgive me and acknowledge that i am human..and i make many mistakes. I'm sorry brian. Sorry mike. Before i die....i want my life to be FULLof happiness just as it was before i moved. I want to have friendships that last a lifetime....and love sumone much like i've loved mike for the longest time. i want no one to be angry with things that i have done to them..i want people to know that i'll be there for them. I want alicia to know that shes helped me..more than she knows....shes helped me from things that do not need to be explained.....mike...he has taught me so much. I learn so much from him. I wasn't done learning from him either. He taught me to be myself and that when life gets hard..u have to find sumthing u love to occupy ur time. he taught me that u can love sumone enough to put their needs before your own. And thats what mike does for me...and i do it for him too. i really want my life back...this isn't home. I want to be happy again before i die. I want to be home. I'm sorry brian.
i wish....she really...wouldnt worry...adn i almost cried again....reading this....i wish i could...send her back up to ny...i really do...just so she could be...with every1 she misses...im so...self-destructive...