....i can be a cruel as you.

[my_love_assasin]

right now i am tumultuous.

i'm not really sure if it is lack of sleep or something else.

i feel this floating anxiety, but of a kind that masks a strange deep rage.

and this mean little man pushed me on the bus! and then he glared at me like i was doing something wrong.
i wanted to push him off the bus.
i mollified myself by thinking about how he has a small ugly penis and how he is probably a republican.
i also had to do some calming meditation so i wouldn't pour my coffee on his head.

yesterday i talked to michael about my parents. i wonder if that has something to do with it.

ana suggested going for a walk later. maybe that will help me feel better.

i think i need to do something where i don't feel any demands.