roller coasters
If a relationship with God is like a roller coaster with its ups and downs, I'd say I'm at the part of the ride when you feel completely numb, when the force of the ride hits you and leaves you almost paralyzed, when you scream out or even cry because you're not standing on the ground anymore, you're not where you're comfortable, you are where you feel disoriented. You're scared that the seat might not hold you in, that your insides might not stay inside, and you might not want to be at that part of the ride anymore.The ride going up, now that was amazing. The view... I could see so far. Everything seemed so peaceful and calm. Sitting in that seat, slowing going up the sun closer to me, warm. Nothing ahead of me but blue sky. But then all of sudden, the peace is gone and I'm being hurtled at the ground, full speed. The view that was so calming is now spinning around me in complete chaos. The blue sky is now under me, around me, not above like it should be. Things are rearranged, why am I being thrown around and not reclining safely? Why am I so scared of what I cannot control? The seatbelt has already been clicked, the ride is already going, it's too late now. I'm in for the whole thing. So, although there are times when I might want to get off, close my eyes and pretend that it's not happening, or just cry and hope it stops, I'm in for the ride, it really is a good one, I know it. Besides, I guess it's the scary parts that make it all worth it.