AN OLD POEM I LIKE. HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH MY LIFE IN PRESENT TIME!!!!

[my_life_written]

Title : Untitled Misery
Author : Sharon Ardern

Why can’t I eat
Why can’t I sleep
Why am I drowning
In sorrow so deep

So many questions
Such little time
Is this life I see before me
Really mine?

Bound by things I hate
Feelings I would rather not know
Wounds that never heal
Pain that just won’t go

Same song playing
Past five hours on repeat
Depressing and perfect for me
Misery so cruel and so sweet

Through all of these years
I laid unknown amongst the best of you
I was the ugly duckling
Failing with all I tried to do

And now I feel I’m dying
My body seems so ill
I try and find a hope
But I don’t think I will

I scream at my mother
Asking to be left on my own
When really it’s a scream
Pleading to not be left alone

Once captivated by my goals
Dreams of becoming a star
Famous and full of pride
But that road is too long and far

I find nothing and no one
Can reach into me and pull me out
From this body in which I lie
It’s easier to scream, cry and shout

Never going anywhere
It’s easy to just give in
Suicide is so appealing
Suicide is a sin

But now I do not care
If it were not for this one fear
I would be dead by now
One small doubt, is all that keeps me here