Rob's Birthday
Well so far this weeks been okay i guess...last night was the worst...I was at the school ushering for the play Cinderella, which I now have only 2 more days of, and Rach and John help out too...the thing is he still isn't even saying hi to me...I was sitting on the edge of the stage by Lucas and talking to he and Jaime when John came up and started talking to Lucas but never even said a word to me...then he went to the sound booth with Haupert and Josh and Liz....awhile later Rach goes up there too....there's no reason for her to be up there but she was all night...you could hear them talking in the auditorium where I was sitting...it sucked...they have no consideration for my feelings what-so-ever...and they were my good friends and boyfriend at one time...the worst part of last night was...that when Lucas and Megan were singing the final song and then they "got married" I started crying...but I was sitting by some friends so I tried to not let them notice...it sucked...because the things that the song said was stuff that I remember John saying to me...like your beautiful and I love you...etc. but now i don't even get a hello or goodbye...I really wish that we could be friends after this..>I know it's going to be hard but I really want it...
Anyway...on a different subject that I've been thinking about a lot lately...Rob's birthday is tomorrow...he would have been 17 years old...I miss him sooooo.........much it's not even funny...I still don't understand what he did to deserve to be taken away from all of us...he was a good person and wouldn't hurt a fly. It's still not fair that he and Arthur were taken away at the same time a year after we had just lost 2 of our other friends...then we lose another one to suicide after that...I don't understand what this is leading us into...everyone has changed because of all of the deaths in our school I'm just praying that we don't have to go through it again...Well I'm going to go now I'll probably update sometime when I get a chance after school's out...
--Maegan
Anyway...on a different subject that I've been thinking about a lot lately...Rob's birthday is tomorrow...he would have been 17 years old...I miss him sooooo.........much it's not even funny...I still don't understand what he did to deserve to be taken away from all of us...he was a good person and wouldn't hurt a fly. It's still not fair that he and Arthur were taken away at the same time a year after we had just lost 2 of our other friends...then we lose another one to suicide after that...I don't understand what this is leading us into...everyone has changed because of all of the deaths in our school I'm just praying that we don't have to go through it again...Well I'm going to go now I'll probably update sometime when I get a chance after school's out...
--Maegan