find me a friend?
"i am done with it, acutally i lied" seems to be the phrase that defines my life right now.
two seconds ago i was thinking about how much i missed disney world and how i really need to go back there. asap. with my friends.
senior year was nothing short of amazing. i loved almost every moment of it, the tears, laughter, fights, and smiles made life interesting. this summer so far has just left me confused.
maybe its because when i said goodbye 3 months ago to someone and i didn't mean it. i wanted them to chase me, i wanted to feel special. maybe its because now i feel neglected and ignored but at the same time this weird attraction.
last night was not the night of my life. every time i expect something good it is the exact opposite.
i was crying and you didn't even know it.
i don't think i believe in the phrase i love you anymore. or at least for the time being. i just can't hear it from you anymore. its a lie. i am beginning to think you don't even know me and that you don't want to.
i can't have a summer filled with days like the past two. i just have been setting myself up for disappointment and that is not the normal me.
speaking of that i do not feel like my normal self at all. i need to talk things out. i need to find someone that is willing to listen. i need to be self absorbed for one day so that i can work things out.
i cried over a boy. ridiclous. i am sick of this feeling, sick of always being second. you have to want to be here to have a good time, your countdown makes me wonder if i am just filling up time again.
so basically i feel used, but can't figure out why i keep running back.
and the livejournal is back...
two seconds ago i was thinking about how much i missed disney world and how i really need to go back there. asap. with my friends.
senior year was nothing short of amazing. i loved almost every moment of it, the tears, laughter, fights, and smiles made life interesting. this summer so far has just left me confused.
maybe its because when i said goodbye 3 months ago to someone and i didn't mean it. i wanted them to chase me, i wanted to feel special. maybe its because now i feel neglected and ignored but at the same time this weird attraction.
last night was not the night of my life. every time i expect something good it is the exact opposite.
i was crying and you didn't even know it.
i don't think i believe in the phrase i love you anymore. or at least for the time being. i just can't hear it from you anymore. its a lie. i am beginning to think you don't even know me and that you don't want to.
i can't have a summer filled with days like the past two. i just have been setting myself up for disappointment and that is not the normal me.
speaking of that i do not feel like my normal self at all. i need to talk things out. i need to find someone that is willing to listen. i need to be self absorbed for one day so that i can work things out.
i cried over a boy. ridiclous. i am sick of this feeling, sick of always being second. you have to want to be here to have a good time, your countdown makes me wonder if i am just filling up time again.
so basically i feel used, but can't figure out why i keep running back.
and the livejournal is back...