Only One...
hey you guys...i am not going to say i have had a lot going on because in reality i havent...heh...i have been L-A-Z-Y...heh heh...and i am changing my ways from here on out...there will be no more updating and saying i should be dead because it would make people happy...because i know it wont...i am a good person and i shouldnt think the way i did...oh and cutting?...that shits done...i am going to go get help for it...its too stronge for me to quite by myself...so im going to go get help for that...and my anti-depressents..well i need to either stop taking Zoloft because it is not working worth shit for me...so i am going to talk to my mum about it...and i am going to have her take to the doctor in order for me to get on different anti-depressents...because i know i need it...and tomorrow is the last day of sweet ol' 2004 =(...i am going to really really miss 2004...and atleast i know i made a lot of 2004 the best i could...besides being depressed...but thats all in the past...and i am going to lock the door and stop thinking about my past and start thinking about my future...i know i have a future...with the man i love Jre...i love him soo much...he is a great person...okay...well this is the last time i will type about my fuck up...okay well i cut like two weeks ago and i lied to Jre and said i didnt do it...and i promised him that i would not do it..and broke that promise...well he over reacted and took away ALL of his trust in me...he would not believe that i love him and care about him and would not believe that i want to spend the rest of my life with him and that i will never ever leave him...so now i have to gain his trust back and he said he is going to work on giving me his trust back into me...so i cried an awful lot...but thats okay...thats what i get...but today he did apologize for over reacting and he says that he does believe that i love him without a doubt...and im glad he does...and i know that i dont have all his trust back...but that is where we both work on it...and yeah...i fucked up there by lying to him ya know...because thats where he does have problems with people...he has problems with believing peoeple because they all lie to him...and i dont want to be like all those other people..so i am going to be real with him...well i am out...PEACE AND LOVE ALL...feed back if you want...HAVE A GREAT NEW YEARS...