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i dont know why, really.
i have been so depressed lately, its not even funny.
i cant eat, i cant sleep, and im so fucking miserable.
though i would never kill myself, i have never thought about doing it more than i have this week. it seems like everything is happening in a domino effect, and its just one fucking thing right after the other. i am SO sick of it.
i do so much for everyone else (mainly my family.. they dont do ANYTHING for me, only erica and i never even get a chance to see her).
I WANT TO GO TO ORLANDO. i want to see guilherme. i want to get out of maine for a week and have FUN, and DRINK, and smoke tons of pot, and go to the ocean, and seaworld, and disney.
hopefully this trip is still happening because i will fucking KILL MYSELF if it isnt, and i mean that in ALL seriousness. i cant take much more.
i have been so depressed lately, its not even funny.
i cant eat, i cant sleep, and im so fucking miserable.
though i would never kill myself, i have never thought about doing it more than i have this week. it seems like everything is happening in a domino effect, and its just one fucking thing right after the other. i am SO sick of it.
i do so much for everyone else (mainly my family.. they dont do ANYTHING for me, only erica and i never even get a chance to see her).
I WANT TO GO TO ORLANDO. i want to see guilherme. i want to get out of maine for a week and have FUN, and DRINK, and smoke tons of pot, and go to the ocean, and seaworld, and disney.
hopefully this trip is still happening because i will fucking KILL MYSELF if it isnt, and i mean that in ALL seriousness. i cant take much more.