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ugh i think im in a weird mood right now and i think i kind of hate it. i over-analyze situations way too much. i just cant seem to accept things for what they are. i always try to find something negative in something that is quite possibly the most amazing thing. i just dont know why sometimes i feel inadequate. it could very well be possible that you may be too good for me and that i dont deserve an ounce of what you give. it sucks being a girl.
i need to work on somethings with myself. it sucks when you dont know where to start. right now i really wish i was back in gwinnett, living in tree creek, waking up to ozzie, catching the bus to school at 6:50, and hanging out in the corner of the hallway with jaimie, amy, jeremy, and stan. although life seemed difficult at times back then it was probably the simplest of times. money wasnt an issue and being scared of my heart being in the hands of another didnt worry me. i dont think i have ever been so scared in my life of what would happen if you decided that i have become too much of a pain to deal with. just thinking about it makes it hard to breathe. you should be here right now to tell me how stupid im being.
moving right along....
work is slowly getting better. i still bitch about it all the time because its a lot of running around. money is better. football season starts in september so i think what i make now will double. i should be loaded soon. hopefully. im beginning to form friendships with the people i work with and luckily for me the ones that i dont get along with are leaving and going back to school.
school starts on tuesday. i seriously cant wait for fall and being able to walk around downtown with the cold wind on my face while listening to my ipod. the little things are what matter sometimes. i am really looking forward to seeing stan at least twice a week. that is if he decides to show up to class. jokes.
i hate my apartment. i wish i could move out but whatever. school will make it worth being there and then the lease is up in june and i can get the fuck out of there.
kelley will be there more, therefore, my sanity will return.
overall, despite my few moments of shitty insecurites rising to the surface, life is pretty much amazing simply because of these few things:
♥ "i am about 75% sure that i just peed on your leg."
♥ kelley and margarita nights.
♥ zach.
now i shall go and eat my last piece of fried garlic sushi and watch mean girls.
i need to work on somethings with myself. it sucks when you dont know where to start. right now i really wish i was back in gwinnett, living in tree creek, waking up to ozzie, catching the bus to school at 6:50, and hanging out in the corner of the hallway with jaimie, amy, jeremy, and stan. although life seemed difficult at times back then it was probably the simplest of times. money wasnt an issue and being scared of my heart being in the hands of another didnt worry me. i dont think i have ever been so scared in my life of what would happen if you decided that i have become too much of a pain to deal with. just thinking about it makes it hard to breathe. you should be here right now to tell me how stupid im being.
moving right along....
work is slowly getting better. i still bitch about it all the time because its a lot of running around. money is better. football season starts in september so i think what i make now will double. i should be loaded soon. hopefully. im beginning to form friendships with the people i work with and luckily for me the ones that i dont get along with are leaving and going back to school.
school starts on tuesday. i seriously cant wait for fall and being able to walk around downtown with the cold wind on my face while listening to my ipod. the little things are what matter sometimes. i am really looking forward to seeing stan at least twice a week. that is if he decides to show up to class. jokes.
i hate my apartment. i wish i could move out but whatever. school will make it worth being there and then the lease is up in june and i can get the fuck out of there.
kelley will be there more, therefore, my sanity will return.
overall, despite my few moments of shitty insecurites rising to the surface, life is pretty much amazing simply because of these few things:
♥ "i am about 75% sure that i just peed on your leg."
♥ kelley and margarita nights.
♥ zach.
now i shall go and eat my last piece of fried garlic sushi and watch mean girls.