last gasp for air

[my_last_beauty]

i can't help but feeling really shitty.

i don't think i should discuss why in a public journal.

but this sucks, it really does.

i'm more depressed than i have been in over a year.

i hate myself a lot right now.

i'm really scared.

i have a feeling, friday night is going to break me down.

i'm gonna need you guys, whoever reads this, to help me out for a week at least.

the last week has killed me.

i hope to god i have anamazing day tomorrow, because i know friday will bring me way down.

i haven't cried so much in forever.

my stomach, my eyes, my head, my heart...it all hurts.

i hate this.