where can you run to escape from yourself? where you gonna go? salvation is here...
a whole lot has gone on with my life lately and it feels like everything is starting to fall into place. just a few new things, i've been starting to go to the youth meetings at woodland church the past few weeks thanks to chris. i've met some awesome people there and am so glad i started going there, because i feel like i'm accepted there and people don't judge me over there and i like that. its rare when you can go to a place and just be yourself without worrying what others think of you. i met a really cool guy there, garrett. we've been hanging out lately and it's fun cuz he actually understands me. i hope we become really good friends. besides meeting a bunch of new people, i've become closer to God because lately i've been kind of doubting things the past few years and felt i just didn't fit in with anything, but that's all beginning to change.
around the beginning of this month i wrote down a whole list of things that i wanted to accomplish (well, NEEDED to accomplish) within the next month or so. one of that is getting my car and stuff and today my mom told me that my dad gets to order a new company car before nov. 1st so guess what that means...i get his old car! but it wont come that easy, i am going to have to work to pay for insurance and gas money and stuff..something else that was on my "to do" list : getting a job. and i'm going to try more than hard to find one. i've been putting applications in, but no luck. i guess i have to be agressive about this and actually call the places and see what's up. i really want to work at that yogurt place cuz it seems like a good first job to have, i think i will call them and find out what's the deal cuz they were suposed to have called me, they said, and sure enough they didn't. something else on my list was to get my senior pictures taken: it's scheduled for november 13. i hope they turn out ok.
something else that's completly awesome is that i may be going to cedar point on saturday! i absolutely love cedar point. am so excited, it's like *JUMP UP AND DOWN* kind of excited. i'm going to FINALLY ride the top thrill dragster (last 3 times i didn't get to cuz of either it breaking down or the line being 78987 hours long..) but i am going to make it a point to go on that this time, at least once. even if i have to wait 2 hours, i'm going. i've always told myself i won't wait for more than about an hour and a half for a ride, but i think i might stretch the limits on that one. and me and laura each get to bring a friend along too. i hope she brings rachel, she's like my second lil sis lol. HALLOWEEKENDS IS THE BEST TIME TO GO TO CEDAR POINT!! so scary at night! i'm "jump out of your skin" excited.
lately especially in school i've been noticing some stuff. i can't stand this. people make fun of so many people, put people down, make them feel less of themselves. i mean, WHAT is the point of that? there is no point in making fun of someone. do YOU like when someone makes fun of YOU? no, i didnt think so. so WHY DO IT? does it prove anything? does it make you feel like a stronger "cooler" person? if it does, i think you have a problem. most people probably do it for attention cuz they are truly insecure with themselves so they feel that putting someone else down and noticing other people's flaws, will make them feel more content with themselves. definetly not the way to make you feel like a better person. i am just getting fed up with it. i don't want to sound all crabby and complaining-ish now, but i am truly sick and tired of all this.
T R E A T
O T H E R S
T H E
W A Y
Y O U
W A N T
T O
B E
T R E A T E D
it's not just a saying, they are words to live by.
this morning i woke up to go to school and i could barely get out of bed. my throat was really scratchy and my head felt like it just got ran over by a truck. and i tried to talk to my mom but i lost my voice and couldn't even talk. it kinda felt like i had just got back from cedar point (cuz i always seem to lose my voice after i get back from cedar point from screaming so much) my mom told me to just go back to bed that i shouldn't go to school today. i was trying to get perfect attendance this year, but there was no way that i could have gone to school today, i could barely move my body hurt so bad. so i went back to bed and slept for 14 hours total since last night. and i'm still tired even after that. i woke up at noon and almost fell out of bed becasue i was still tired and i dont know why i didn't just go to bed but i felt like i'd sleep my whole day away (which i probably would have) so now i'm feeling a little better but not much, i just feel really weak. but oh well, i'll get better soon. i'm not gonna miss anymore school though.
actually i think i'm going to go lay down some more cuz i'm really tired still.
can't believe i actually updated this thing, i hadn't in forever.
actually i think i'm gonna go start on my graduation scrapbook thing that i'm gonna make cuz i like doing that kinda stuff and i have nothing else to do.
xoxo
around the beginning of this month i wrote down a whole list of things that i wanted to accomplish (well, NEEDED to accomplish) within the next month or so. one of that is getting my car and stuff and today my mom told me that my dad gets to order a new company car before nov. 1st so guess what that means...i get his old car! but it wont come that easy, i am going to have to work to pay for insurance and gas money and stuff..something else that was on my "to do" list : getting a job. and i'm going to try more than hard to find one. i've been putting applications in, but no luck. i guess i have to be agressive about this and actually call the places and see what's up. i really want to work at that yogurt place cuz it seems like a good first job to have, i think i will call them and find out what's the deal cuz they were suposed to have called me, they said, and sure enough they didn't. something else on my list was to get my senior pictures taken: it's scheduled for november 13. i hope they turn out ok.
something else that's completly awesome is that i may be going to cedar point on saturday! i absolutely love cedar point. am so excited, it's like *JUMP UP AND DOWN* kind of excited. i'm going to FINALLY ride the top thrill dragster (last 3 times i didn't get to cuz of either it breaking down or the line being 78987 hours long..) but i am going to make it a point to go on that this time, at least once. even if i have to wait 2 hours, i'm going. i've always told myself i won't wait for more than about an hour and a half for a ride, but i think i might stretch the limits on that one. and me and laura each get to bring a friend along too. i hope she brings rachel, she's like my second lil sis lol. HALLOWEEKENDS IS THE BEST TIME TO GO TO CEDAR POINT!! so scary at night! i'm "jump out of your skin" excited.
lately especially in school i've been noticing some stuff. i can't stand this. people make fun of so many people, put people down, make them feel less of themselves. i mean, WHAT is the point of that? there is no point in making fun of someone. do YOU like when someone makes fun of YOU? no, i didnt think so. so WHY DO IT? does it prove anything? does it make you feel like a stronger "cooler" person? if it does, i think you have a problem. most people probably do it for attention cuz they are truly insecure with themselves so they feel that putting someone else down and noticing other people's flaws, will make them feel more content with themselves. definetly not the way to make you feel like a better person. i am just getting fed up with it. i don't want to sound all crabby and complaining-ish now, but i am truly sick and tired of all this.
T R E A T
O T H E R S
T H E
W A Y
Y O U
W A N T
T O
B E
T R E A T E D
it's not just a saying, they are words to live by.
this morning i woke up to go to school and i could barely get out of bed. my throat was really scratchy and my head felt like it just got ran over by a truck. and i tried to talk to my mom but i lost my voice and couldn't even talk. it kinda felt like i had just got back from cedar point (cuz i always seem to lose my voice after i get back from cedar point from screaming so much) my mom told me to just go back to bed that i shouldn't go to school today. i was trying to get perfect attendance this year, but there was no way that i could have gone to school today, i could barely move my body hurt so bad. so i went back to bed and slept for 14 hours total since last night. and i'm still tired even after that. i woke up at noon and almost fell out of bed becasue i was still tired and i dont know why i didn't just go to bed but i felt like i'd sleep my whole day away (which i probably would have) so now i'm feeling a little better but not much, i just feel really weak. but oh well, i'll get better soon. i'm not gonna miss anymore school though.
actually i think i'm going to go lay down some more cuz i'm really tired still.
can't believe i actually updated this thing, i hadn't in forever.
actually i think i'm gonna go start on my graduation scrapbook thing that i'm gonna make cuz i like doing that kinda stuff and i have nothing else to do.
xoxo