Man What a Life I Lead. . .
Has anyone ever been so close to someone and then they just slip away, as if you never knew them? Well that is what happened to me. The most important friend is slowly slipping through my fingers and I am afraid that I will never see her again. I mean we are very close at times, but I feel that love, that bond, that need-ness is going toward another, in fact I KNOW it's going toward another. The only way we ever talk, is when she is needing to do something non-friend related to me. Like work or whatever, but fun, boy that word is one word I REALLY miss, just isn't in her eyes with me. She listens to different things now, she acting and saying, and being totally different from what I remember. Not saying that it is not her right not to change, but I you could only imagine all the things we used to share, the secrets, the tears, the laughs, the parties, the friends, everything is gone! ! Now, she is willingly giving all of that attention to another. She never looks at me as a friend anymore, she looks at me like a relative, no more talks, secrets, laughs, just silence. Plain silence. So I sit here, alone typing to someone anyone who could just relate to how I feel, like your mom, who, bless her heart still TRIES to be hip but you know is ain't workin. Of that old guy who likes to dress young, despite that he is 50 years past his youth. But alas, I am only 20. While the world slowly slips away, I sit here and just "be".