I just wrote this to someone and wasn't really thinking of myself.. so for give te 3 person complex

[my_kai_my_life]

I dont know why you feel that way you have so much going on for you right now, i recently found out that the man i love is cheating on me again.. so you can only imagine how i feel, yeah i've been crying and shit but hey what else can i do, i can't make him love me. then i got Mykaila, also i have other news that I wanted to tell you, i am leaving next sat, i just can't deal anymore, i really dont know where but i hurts me to see myself with someone who can't possibly love himself, or his daughter. don't tell anyone about the move, just between you and me. Best friend to best friend, i need you more than ever sis.. i really don't know what to do. it's like since you been gone, i have been going through my withdrawls and stuff w/o you. i miss you sister i really do! ! oh there is one more thing, unlike the tongue ring i am going to get, I am also Bi. Yeah i know it's weird huh?
i just can't deal with the fact that another guy hurting me. i have been raped, abused and had money taken from me from guys. i am just tired of dealing with them, and then with David, and all these years. . . . man i am not going to go there. Please understand, I really don't have anyone to turn to at all baby... don't hate me i love you so much! ! ! please call me at work when you get this or hit me on my cell if you want to.... i don't want to hurt you, i already hurt David, i guess he would'nt be fucking around....