did you know i miss you .. oh god i miss you
hey guys .. wanna know what i did today? of course you do ..
so first, i stayed home from school for a couple of reasons. i didn't do any of my homework last night or study for my test in english or take a shower or any of that fun stuff. so going would be kind of pointless. also, i was in a horrible mood nd i don't even know what i'm gonna do. like, about stuff. but anyways, i went to the mall with my sister at like 10 and we payed her bills nd went shopping! whoo. then i felt so much better until we got in the car nd started listening to music, because everything reminds me of him. i'm pretty pathetic... lol. but that's okay. then we went to her storage place nd payed her bills there, and then we came home. then .. i played with my kittens nd stuff till my mom left. so right now it's 1:30 and i'm all out of stuff to do. and it sucks. also, i've decided (( again )) that i'm not gonna go out with anyone. because there's only one guy for me. and yea. thanks everybody for trying to cheer me up [ kate, ken, matt, dylan, loren, josh " i'll be your boyfriend for a day .. ", david .. nd everybody else, i love you guys ] soo yea right now i'm deciding what i'm gonna do tonight. i was gonna go to the football game with becky nd kate but now i don't really know if i want to. either way i'll probably end up at kate's house. like always.
(( my konstantine ))
i can't imagine all the people that you know
and the places that you go when the lights are turned down low
and i don't understand all the things you've seen
but i'm slipping in between you and your big dreams
it's always you .. in my big dreams
and you tell me that it's over
wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clover
and you're restless and i'm naked
you got to get out, you can't stand to see me shaking
no, could you let me go? i didn't think so ..
and you don't want to be here in the future
so you say the present's just a pleasant interuption to the past
and you don't want to look much closer
cause you're afraid to find out all this hope you had sent into the sky
had crashed, and it did ..
because of me
and then you bring me home
afraid to find out that you're alone
and i'm sleeping in your living room
we don't have much room .. to live
and i have these dreams
in them i learn to play guitar,
maybe cross the country .. become a rock star
and there was hope in me that i could take you there
but damnit you're so young
well i don't think i care
and if i hurt you, then i'm sorry
please don't think that this was easy ..
and then you'd bring me home
cause we both know what it's like to be alone
and i'm dreaming in your living room
we don't have much room .. to live
and konstantine is walking down the stairs
doesn't she look good standing in her underwear
and i was thinking, i was thinking
but we've been drinking and it doesnt get me anywhere
my konstantine came walking down the stairs
and all that i could do was touch her long blonde hair
and i've been thinking, but it hurts me thinking
that these nights when we were drinking
no, they never got us anywhere, no
this is because i can spell konfusion with a k
and i can like it
this is to dying in another's arms and why i had to try it
it's to jimmy eat world, and those nights in my car
when the first star you see might not be a star
i'm not your .. star
isn't that what you said ?
what you thought this song meant ..
and this is what it takes just to lay with my mistakes
and live with what i did to you, all the hell i put you through
i always catch the clock, it's 11:11
and now you want to talk ..
it's not hard to dream, you'll always be my konstantine
my konstantine .. they'll never hurt you like i do
no, they'll never hurt you like i do
no, no, no no no no no
this is to a girl who into my head
with all the pretty things she did
hey, you know, you keep my up in bed
this is to a girl who got into my head
with all the fucked up things i did
hey, maybe, baby, you could keep me up in bed
my konstantine, you spin around me like a dream
played out on this movie scene
and i said, did you know i miss you?
did you know i miss you ? x 45793074
i miss you .. oh god, i miss you
and then you bring me home
and we go to sleep, but this time not alone
and you kiss me in your living room
i know you miss me in your living room
cause these nights i think maybe that i miss you in my living room
we don't have much room ..
i said, does anybody need that room ?
cause we all need a little more room ..
to live
my konstantine