.. oh i can't go on not loving you <3
today was hot sex. all over the place. repeatedly. except no. not so much. it would be 39779812918 x better if i went to erik's like i planned. cept i fell asleep for like 4 hours, which was crap. nd then by the time he called me woke me up i could have only gone over for like an hour anyways. soo that part sucked. because i loove spending time with him. but i'll be wiff him tomorrow nd saturday night which is gonna be great! ;o) i can't wait. even though i wish more than anything matt would stop being stupid. to kathleen. cause that pisses me off. but eehhh. i got all my homecoming stuff last night nd i love it. it's all perfect. hopefully no one has my dress. or else i'm gonna bust a cap. but i doubt it. holy jesus this song makes me cry. i get this horrible feeling in my stomach. it like, fits me so frucking perfectly. nd i can't even stop myself. even thoug it was so long ago. nd i hate her so much. i don't even care about her. it's just him. nd i know he loves me so much nd he knows it was a huge mistake nd he would never do anything like that to me ever again. it's just kinda like, if we're so meant to be, would that have even happened? ehh. just his voice like when he says "she's leaving" sets something off. nd it kills me. this song:
'cause it's all in my head ..
i think about it over and over
and i can't keep picturing you with him
and it hurts so bad
'cause it's all in my head
i think about it over and over
and i replay it over and over
and i can't take, i can't shake it .. noo
i can't wait to see you
want to see if you still got that look in your eyes
the one you had for me, before we said our goodbyes
and it's a shame that we gotta spend our time
being mad about the same things
over and over again
( about the same things )
over and over again
ooh, but i think she's leaving
ooh man, she's leaving
i don't know what else to do
( i can't go on not loving you )
'cause it's all in my head
and i think about it over and over again
i can't keep picturing with him
and it hurts so bad
'cause it's all in my head
i think about it over nd over again
i r e p l a y i t o v e r a n d o v e r
i can't take it, no i can't shake it, no
i remember the day you left
i remember the last breath you took right in front of me
when you said that you would leave
i was too damn stubborn to try to stop you or say anything
but i see it clearly now
and this choice i made keep playing in my head
over and over again
.. playing in my head ..
over and over again
i think she's leaving
ooh man, she's leaving
i don't know what else to do
[ i c a n ' t g o o n n o t l o v i n g y o u ]
. chorus .
( now that i've realized that i'm going down
from all this pain you've put me through
every time i close my eyes i like it down )
ooh i can't go on not loving you
wow, i'm a crazy kid. i like don't even think about it over nd over again. just this song as soon as i heard it, i was like, whoa. but i'm so in love with erik nd i mean it. not like, i love my boyfriend of 2 weeks! he means everything to me! he doesn't even know it! nothing will ever stop it! more like, he's my whole damn life, and i'm going to be with him forever. hmm well enough of that. lol. i needed to vent. <3
i love you erik; you're my whole world <3
x ;y0ur k 0 n s t a n t ii n e x3