hmmm this is random,.....but long time no talk...no one uses anymore

[my_journey_past]

hey so i couldnt get my myspace to work on the goddam computers in school. ... (ahh yes i am a senior and stuck here for another year.....and to top it off i got caught skippin like in the first 3 weeks so now my mom took away my car till im 18 and its like 6 monthes away. what the fuck!) anyway...so i have a boyfriend and his name is jon. He is too old for me but he acts like hes like 12 years old. i love it...some one on my age range and mentality leveeol....just kiddin. !!!!!! hehehehe....anyway...i was wondering off the top of my head how barbara was doing these days....? dont know why...but i miss you barbara for some unknown reason. your comedy helped me through 4th period every day. so now as i sit in the library during lunch ...(like all the losers with no friends do...except i am instead trying to cover up the fact that i am high as shit) i wonder what am i going to do next year. i fucked up my chances at most colleges and i dont even seem to have the drive to even apply to college for some reason. its like im so lazy that i dont even want to look for applications but in my mind it seems to tell me that it will just happen....! FAT CHANCE! WATCH...ill be the girl (along with my best friend Rachael) who works for their first year out of high school instead of attending frat parties and getting laid by really hot "men". I mean it wont be all that bad....we will get high and party , but i will end up in grade 13 basically at a community college....like wor-wic (god forbid) and i will waste away there for 2 years to get a associates degree....in who knows what....and by that time...ill be so sick of the college expierience.(working on homework sucks) that i wont even want to get a four year degree. instead i will get that associate degree in who know what and then i will end up waitresssing or getting blue colar jobs for the rest of my humble life and i will marry a blue collar man...and i will live in Hampden in a row house with my 8 million kids...(as my husband will be catholic and not believe in the pill). what a plan....my life is set....i know what im doing and where im going...at least i can saythat much....! following in the footsteps of my beloved mother....! unlike her though....i wont wait till im about 60 years old to realize that i need a college degree to get anywhere in life. by the age of 40 or so i will have grown up and changed....2 kids will do that to you......and expenses will go up....so my husband will urge me on to a bachelors degree. i will finally live my dream and get a degree in journalism.....(just a little late) and then i will fly high and even at the age of 40 i will be the hippest and hottest teen mag journalist around. WHAT A PLAN!?!?!?!?! GOOD LUCK WITH THAT ONE EMILY! (i think to myself)....it just seems like the ramblings of a 17 year old who cut school and is having a cavity filled and has a boyfriend who is too old and is high and hyper.....(of course off mountain dews...sorry but i dont do the ski slopes...that shit is fucked up...the dew is the same effect like after 5 of them)and hopes that her senior year gets better than this....i mean...who really sits in the library and types their life story on their lunch break....????!?!?!?! I AM OFFICIALLY LABELING MYSELF AS A DORK! YIPEE./.....

Ps- sorry i gotta go cause its time to blazoramma....gotta love it
pps- whoever reads this...sorry for the no periods and bad grammer....but im a stoner...i just ramble when i feel like it and type the way i want....you would do it too if you were doing the best shit known too man