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so... I'm over the josh thing.... We havent talked yet, but pretty much his time is up.... The thing that was upsetting me the most was that he wasnt being truthfull with me and he is ignoring me pretty much...
I planned on talking to him last night, but something else came up.. (warning, long recount of events:
Called him, got no answer and then like ten mins later he text'd me that they were going to this one guys house to hang out. This guy, aaron w., I'd met once before... Sometime last week josh, his friend derrick, and me met him up at IHOP(he's friends with derrick). Anyways all that night I thought he was staring at my eyes, like seriously... He did eventually comment about how much he loved me eyes.. And he seemed disappointed when josh showed alitlte jealous-ness when me and aaron were joking around...
We've hung out at this guys place one other time since then, and he was under-the-radar flirting with me all night... very low key, but cute and noticable.
Anyways, on to last night.. I get there and Josh is really ignoring me. *note- he still hasnt replied or acknowledged a message I sent him monday that included some questions and concerns- basicly my asking him to either say "lets just be friends" or wether he wanted to date or what*. In fact the only time he really acknowledges me is when I say something to bring up a jealous twinge. He sat sorta next to me on the couch and got up to smoke, when he came back I'd shifted to lean back *staying well within my own space* and when he sat down we brushed against each other he said "Well just take up the whole couch" and I so I shifted away and said "I dont want to sit by you anyways." (*i tried to say it playfully, and I had been the first to sit on that couch)... so he got up and moved... Later me and aaron were talking and he noticed me again...
Anyways I'd planned on asking him if he'd read my message -if not then why, before I left.... Well the group of us went up to the gas station, derrick drove, josh sat up front, and he pulled this girl*his long time friend* liz on to his lap, leaving me and aaron in the back.... I rolled my eyes at josh, and shock my head and I forget what led to it but he said "they say you really like him", and I replied "yeah, that was like a week or two ago, I just havent gotten to clear up things with him yet."..... and blah blah blah... he put his hand against my leg in a very discrete yet "i'm doing this on purpose" type way.... and later we ended up sitting next to each other on the couch, with his shoulder resting on mine in a totally inconspicuous way while he was texting his friend. Josh was sitting right next to us, not touching me at all or even looking at me *previous to aaron sitting down I'd had my hand on his leg and he said "-thats- my leg", so i moved it and he went back to ignoring me*. I think the problem with Josh was that Liz was talking to derrick.
so yeah, aaron was texting and between actual texts he wrote on his screen "want my number for whenever you re tired of josh?"... so I put my number on my screen for him to call... and he did put it in his phone...
As I was leaving, Josh didnt walk me out. He was making a drink for Liz, and barely said bye to me.... Aaron texted me later saying he was sorry he didnt walk me out but he didnt want to start something with josh, and then another saying he thought i deserved better some other things....
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so either way I'm talking to Josh tonight.... he's had more then enough time to say he wants to date or just be friends and its no longer his option, its my choice. And even if things dont work with aaron, I dont want to waste any more time with josh.
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I planned on talking to him last night, but something else came up.. (warning, long recount of events:
Called him, got no answer and then like ten mins later he text'd me that they were going to this one guys house to hang out. This guy, aaron w., I'd met once before... Sometime last week josh, his friend derrick, and me met him up at IHOP(he's friends with derrick). Anyways all that night I thought he was staring at my eyes, like seriously... He did eventually comment about how much he loved me eyes.. And he seemed disappointed when josh showed alitlte jealous-ness when me and aaron were joking around...
We've hung out at this guys place one other time since then, and he was under-the-radar flirting with me all night... very low key, but cute and noticable.
Anyways, on to last night.. I get there and Josh is really ignoring me. *note- he still hasnt replied or acknowledged a message I sent him monday that included some questions and concerns- basicly my asking him to either say "lets just be friends" or wether he wanted to date or what*. In fact the only time he really acknowledges me is when I say something to bring up a jealous twinge. He sat sorta next to me on the couch and got up to smoke, when he came back I'd shifted to lean back *staying well within my own space* and when he sat down we brushed against each other he said "Well just take up the whole couch" and I so I shifted away and said "I dont want to sit by you anyways." (*i tried to say it playfully, and I had been the first to sit on that couch)... so he got up and moved... Later me and aaron were talking and he noticed me again...
Anyways I'd planned on asking him if he'd read my message -if not then why, before I left.... Well the group of us went up to the gas station, derrick drove, josh sat up front, and he pulled this girl*his long time friend* liz on to his lap, leaving me and aaron in the back.... I rolled my eyes at josh, and shock my head and I forget what led to it but he said "they say you really like him", and I replied "yeah, that was like a week or two ago, I just havent gotten to clear up things with him yet."..... and blah blah blah... he put his hand against my leg in a very discrete yet "i'm doing this on purpose" type way.... and later we ended up sitting next to each other on the couch, with his shoulder resting on mine in a totally inconspicuous way while he was texting his friend. Josh was sitting right next to us, not touching me at all or even looking at me *previous to aaron sitting down I'd had my hand on his leg and he said "-thats- my leg", so i moved it and he went back to ignoring me*. I think the problem with Josh was that Liz was talking to derrick.
so yeah, aaron was texting and between actual texts he wrote on his screen "want my number for whenever you re tired of josh?"... so I put my number on my screen for him to call... and he did put it in his phone...
As I was leaving, Josh didnt walk me out. He was making a drink for Liz, and barely said bye to me.... Aaron texted me later saying he was sorry he didnt walk me out but he didnt want to start something with josh, and then another saying he thought i deserved better some other things....
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so either way I'm talking to Josh tonight.... he's had more then enough time to say he wants to date or just be friends and its no longer his option, its my choice. And even if things dont work with aaron, I dont want to waste any more time with josh.
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