When you feel emptyness..
How would you react if someone told you, that you made them feel like they are trapped. Like you are their mom and you have to tell them what to do? I really didn't think i was that bad.
All of my friends I've ever had, I lost. I work wayyy to much. WAY WAY WAY to much. I guess i realize that now. Working a 45 hour week and going to school with 18 credits really isn't too easy. The only time i ever have for myself is, at night after work. And i'm so tired that i just have to pass out. I get 5 hours a week during the day to do whatever it is i want. usually that just consists of sitting on the couch thinking about how much i hate my life. haha How funny is that? I don't even need to work that much. Wow, i just realized that. Money, it's such a bad thing.
I have no time for anything. No time for friends, no time for myself, no time to clean, no time for homework, or to study, or to even enjoy my life. In the after hours, theres my "You give me a cerfue" boyfriend. You know, maybe if i actually was able to go out without you getting mad at me, because i'm around 'guys', who arent even attracted to me. how pathetic. I'm almost 20 years old and i'm getting into this arguement with you. FOR THE BILLIONTH TIME. You ask me to stay there everynight, but i make you feel trapped? Now that i dont understand. It's easy, i wont stay there. I knew that was going to ruin our relationship. It was going to make things to the point where we can't stand each other. I should have been smarter.
I have no common sense though.
I really just can't wait for a vacation. I've really been considering moving away to Arizona with my mom and joe. Theres nothing important here for me anyway. personally i think waiting around to go to harrisburg to finish my degree isn't worth it. I can just transfer somewhere out there and just be down with the valley. Who wants to live here anyway?
Besides, it's not like i would be missed. Maybe leaving my life behind here is worth it. I can just start a new one, and maybe be happy this time around.
All of my friends I've ever had, I lost. I work wayyy to much. WAY WAY WAY to much. I guess i realize that now. Working a 45 hour week and going to school with 18 credits really isn't too easy. The only time i ever have for myself is, at night after work. And i'm so tired that i just have to pass out. I get 5 hours a week during the day to do whatever it is i want. usually that just consists of sitting on the couch thinking about how much i hate my life. haha How funny is that? I don't even need to work that much. Wow, i just realized that. Money, it's such a bad thing.
I have no time for anything. No time for friends, no time for myself, no time to clean, no time for homework, or to study, or to even enjoy my life. In the after hours, theres my "You give me a cerfue" boyfriend. You know, maybe if i actually was able to go out without you getting mad at me, because i'm around 'guys', who arent even attracted to me. how pathetic. I'm almost 20 years old and i'm getting into this arguement with you. FOR THE BILLIONTH TIME. You ask me to stay there everynight, but i make you feel trapped? Now that i dont understand. It's easy, i wont stay there. I knew that was going to ruin our relationship. It was going to make things to the point where we can't stand each other. I should have been smarter.
I have no common sense though.
I really just can't wait for a vacation. I've really been considering moving away to Arizona with my mom and joe. Theres nothing important here for me anyway. personally i think waiting around to go to harrisburg to finish my degree isn't worth it. I can just transfer somewhere out there and just be down with the valley. Who wants to live here anyway?
Besides, it's not like i would be missed. Maybe leaving my life behind here is worth it. I can just start a new one, and maybe be happy this time around.