.. i never saw it coming.
Well, hey there strangers.
It's been a pretty long time. College is the reason. I believe i'm not online as much. but anyway. I have so much to say.
The other night on my way home from work, i was on the cross valley. While traveling at 70 mph, a car passed me out, doing 75mph. Well, idiot went into my lane, wasn't paying attention, and almost smashes into the van in front of him. So he swerves, looses control of his car smashes into the wall, and then spins over to the other wall, and on the way over bangs into the van, who also looses control.
During all this corruption, where briana, 10 ft away with the windows down, no seat belt, and glued to what was going on. Meanwhile, the cars are headed right for me. So i jerk the car, almost run into the wall myself, but somehow saved myself to get through. I was so close to the accident that i was the ONLY car that got threw it. ALl the other ones behind me had to slam on their breaks, becasue the accident took up the whole entire cross valley.
Well, i was lucky to get through that, because i was going to pass out those cars. And i'm glad i didn't. I probably would have flew out of my car and gotten run over, becasue thats my luck. and there was broken glass all over. I'm just thankful i wasn't tailgating them. Because thats something i always do.
So i made me really think. Obviously. I was scared shittless, i couldn't even drive home, i had to pull over. Everyone was okay, thank god. But still. It really could have been worse.
I guess it really made me wonder about my life, and how much of an idiot i am, and have been. How i've always waited around for something, and then it would be to late.
Why i took everything so seriously, i really don't know. I couldn't ever just let it go and have fun. It made me think of all the people i've gotten into fights with, and hated. But this summer i resolved a few fights.
Like one with 'a girl'. I swear i 'hated' her. But in reality i was just a thought, because thats what i thought was being said about me. I'm a hypocrite. But we're friends. We just dont talk and hang out. Which, makes me feel better about myself. And i don't nkow how i went through my senior year not benig friends with her.
Obviously, i wish i could go back. and change so much.
All the things i never said to some people. I wish i did. But i didn't and i'm not going to reflect on them anymore. High school is over. I'm done thinking about it, and i'm over it. that chapter is over. It's time to turn the page.
I can't believe i actually let go of that, and said that on my own. I'm proud of myself.
Although, i do miss you.
i do remember the last thing you said to me,.. i never got to say thanks.
so, thanks for everything, being a friend, and there for me when i needed someone.
i never told you, but i really appreciate it.
College is different. I like it though. The idea of being able to come and go as you please. Not only attending classes, but being able to sit where you want, wear what you want, act how you want, and leaving between classes. I love the freedom.
University park is only a year and a half away =p. i can't even imagine living 2 hours away from here. I know i'll miss it.
But even when i graduate, i really am leaving here.
Florida beaches here i come.
So no more, friday night lights. Cheerleading. ohhh i miss cheerleading so much. it was so much fun, wearing the uniform, cheering the crowd on, performing. Building, i miss building. that was my favorite part. ohhhh well. =\
Well, as i was on my way home from getting my check, my car started shaking. and it broke down on river road, about a mile away from the 8th st bridge, by that little sunrise resturaunt.
This lady stared at me the whole hour and a half i sat there. With a dead cell phone in my hand. She told her friend that i was going to steal something from their car. She went out to her car every 3 minutes, to check the inside of it. I wanted to tackle her and rip her hair out and tell her, i have a nice house, and a nice life, why would i want to fucking steal something from her.
People drive me crazy sometimes.
Turns out, it was the distributor. It popped off, and all i had to do was pop it back on. I was pretty mad. But the service engine soon light is on. And i need another motormount. Like i fucking replaced the other one less than a year ago.
I want a 2008 eclipse. They are really nice. ;] I can't sell my car though. I would die.
One thing i really miss about wyoming area, is the warrior pride, and the buffalo chicken subs. =p
Anyway, i got an A in my first summer college class. Great way to start off.
Well. i saw my best friend today. I miss her so much. I saw her car, pulled over and she talked to me. Hopefully, we'll hang out soon, i mean since senior week. It's been SOOOOO long. And only because of my school, work, her work, now her school, adn to make it worse, shes not home, and doesn't have a cell phone. Its the worst.
Here's to the new chapter i'm starting with my life. It's time to get over the past and finally be happy, and be happy with myself.
Ohh yeah, and attend the strip club. Which i have yet to do, and get my tattoo. Whenever it is i figure out what i want. ;]
See ya around.
I'll make sure i fill everyone in as soon as i can. =)
I'm slowly getting closure. I guess it's really over. I'm finally getting better. And now I'm picking up the pieces. I'm spending all of these years putting my heart back together.'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through, I got over you.
It's been a pretty long time. College is the reason. I believe i'm not online as much. but anyway. I have so much to say.
The other night on my way home from work, i was on the cross valley. While traveling at 70 mph, a car passed me out, doing 75mph. Well, idiot went into my lane, wasn't paying attention, and almost smashes into the van in front of him. So he swerves, looses control of his car smashes into the wall, and then spins over to the other wall, and on the way over bangs into the van, who also looses control.
During all this corruption, where briana, 10 ft away with the windows down, no seat belt, and glued to what was going on. Meanwhile, the cars are headed right for me. So i jerk the car, almost run into the wall myself, but somehow saved myself to get through. I was so close to the accident that i was the ONLY car that got threw it. ALl the other ones behind me had to slam on their breaks, becasue the accident took up the whole entire cross valley.
Well, i was lucky to get through that, because i was going to pass out those cars. And i'm glad i didn't. I probably would have flew out of my car and gotten run over, becasue thats my luck. and there was broken glass all over. I'm just thankful i wasn't tailgating them. Because thats something i always do.
So i made me really think. Obviously. I was scared shittless, i couldn't even drive home, i had to pull over. Everyone was okay, thank god. But still. It really could have been worse.
I guess it really made me wonder about my life, and how much of an idiot i am, and have been. How i've always waited around for something, and then it would be to late.
Why i took everything so seriously, i really don't know. I couldn't ever just let it go and have fun. It made me think of all the people i've gotten into fights with, and hated. But this summer i resolved a few fights.
Like one with 'a girl'. I swear i 'hated' her. But in reality i was just a thought, because thats what i thought was being said about me. I'm a hypocrite. But we're friends. We just dont talk and hang out. Which, makes me feel better about myself. And i don't nkow how i went through my senior year not benig friends with her.
Obviously, i wish i could go back. and change so much.
All the things i never said to some people. I wish i did. But i didn't and i'm not going to reflect on them anymore. High school is over. I'm done thinking about it, and i'm over it. that chapter is over. It's time to turn the page.
I can't believe i actually let go of that, and said that on my own. I'm proud of myself.
Although, i do miss you.
i do remember the last thing you said to me,.. i never got to say thanks.
so, thanks for everything, being a friend, and there for me when i needed someone.
i never told you, but i really appreciate it.
College is different. I like it though. The idea of being able to come and go as you please. Not only attending classes, but being able to sit where you want, wear what you want, act how you want, and leaving between classes. I love the freedom.
University park is only a year and a half away =p. i can't even imagine living 2 hours away from here. I know i'll miss it.
But even when i graduate, i really am leaving here.
Florida beaches here i come.
So no more, friday night lights. Cheerleading. ohhh i miss cheerleading so much. it was so much fun, wearing the uniform, cheering the crowd on, performing. Building, i miss building. that was my favorite part. ohhhh well. =\
Well, as i was on my way home from getting my check, my car started shaking. and it broke down on river road, about a mile away from the 8th st bridge, by that little sunrise resturaunt.
This lady stared at me the whole hour and a half i sat there. With a dead cell phone in my hand. She told her friend that i was going to steal something from their car. She went out to her car every 3 minutes, to check the inside of it. I wanted to tackle her and rip her hair out and tell her, i have a nice house, and a nice life, why would i want to fucking steal something from her.
People drive me crazy sometimes.
Turns out, it was the distributor. It popped off, and all i had to do was pop it back on. I was pretty mad. But the service engine soon light is on. And i need another motormount. Like i fucking replaced the other one less than a year ago.
I want a 2008 eclipse. They are really nice. ;] I can't sell my car though. I would die.
One thing i really miss about wyoming area, is the warrior pride, and the buffalo chicken subs. =p
Anyway, i got an A in my first summer college class. Great way to start off.
Well. i saw my best friend today. I miss her so much. I saw her car, pulled over and she talked to me. Hopefully, we'll hang out soon, i mean since senior week. It's been SOOOOO long. And only because of my school, work, her work, now her school, adn to make it worse, shes not home, and doesn't have a cell phone. Its the worst.
Here's to the new chapter i'm starting with my life. It's time to get over the past and finally be happy, and be happy with myself.
Ohh yeah, and attend the strip club. Which i have yet to do, and get my tattoo. Whenever it is i figure out what i want. ;]
See ya around.
I'll make sure i fill everyone in as soon as i can. =)
I'm slowly getting closure. I guess it's really over. I'm finally getting better. And now I'm picking up the pieces. I'm spending all of these years putting my heart back together.'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through, I got over you.