Seth.

[my_hidden_scar]

so two years ago tomorrow Seth killed himself.
what i find weird is that for two years, ive felt sorry for him, ive been sad, and felt disappointed.
but last week i was writing a thing for english class
about dreams and how the lack of dreams leads to an empty life
and for some reason he came across my mind
and for the first time in two years
i was angry at him
i thought he was guilty for taking his life
and for leaving everyone to grieve
i felt that he was really selfish for not taking advantage of everything he had
all the people that loved him, the talents he had, all his oppurtunities meant nothing to him.
and i got realy frustrated
and i guess maybe its cuz im sick
or maybe im just growing up
but im starting to realize that we do have to take advantage of everything in our life even if it doesnt look like things are that great
because one day
they might not be there for us to do
or take part in

for example
Shannon, Kelsey, Katelyn, Nicole and I had nervous breakdowns yesterday.
the juniors have been overloaded with work
and i dont have the time to do it all
i work and i try to dance
and im sick so, half of my life id rather be curled up in bed unconcious to the world

and then we realized that if we get through this
everything will be alright
itll be mid fourth quarter where Nothing takes place
all that will be left is finals.
thats it
and then senior year.

so i dont know
this doesnt have a point
im just angry i guess

but im done

sorry for being an emo kid

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