boo........
trying to cant think happiness defeat stress anger depression joy failure withdrawl all filling my head i disl.ike this state for everything it stands for and its people are proud about drugs drugs drugs drugs cant escape them here wont touch them though but thats all i hear about smell see its like its the only thing these sad ass people have to keep them alive everyone here is depressed on something and failing in life and mooching off the closest person thats barely getting by jumping from house to house saying things they shouldnt getting into lives they have no controll or business over my own mother treats me like im the worst failure ever i dont do any drugs i barely ever drink but aparently i never do anything for her EVER thats been made clear everyday im here my own freinds are offering multiple time repeatedly beggin me to move back to live there but i know theres things i have to take care of its allways cold here its not normal all the house's are from the 1800's and falling apart............. i feel like a slave i can see why all the african americans were so fucking pissed its like my house is a fucking slave drivers quarters i feel like a slave litereally and metaphorically lets compare shall we?
in the ahem older times when slavery was legal we took them out of their own country and moved them to whatever destination that we chose
and by doing this we expected them to do what they were told or they could get the fuck out or be beaten emotionally,indirectly,or directly,or pshyically
no care of what they think even if we were worse people we were the oversee'ers we were god in our own minds
now lets compare my situation
i was taken from my homeland when i hadnt wanted to leave only hoping to find a better place and a better way
now that im here and helped move an entire house without a choice im still expected to do everything i dont want to do because im forever angry with this situation
even though my own mother is allowing things to happen that never should and cusing every single fucking one of them that i wont list online......
shes the fucking oversee'er ive allready been told to leave multiple times.........
bleh
so theres a two month wait for job corps
yeah
and when i get there i get to have a q tip down zeee shaffftttt (!!!!!SHITTT!!!!!))))) pain
what a fucked up world
you know ive seen peoples suicidal tendencies ive never really understood how they could just simply throw so many things away without a care but now i know why
the feeling for escape and free dom
all people have really known their entire lives is conformity and if you dont conform to the populous's standards you fail in life so there is really never a true freedom death is but that freedom you never know what is going on in life you never have controll so why not end it that way sooner?
im starting to accept these ways and starting to feel multiple needs of escape
im going out of my mind in so many multiple ways ive been shaking the entire time ive been typing all of this and i cant make it stop
i want out of this state
this life
this hell
fuck
fuk
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuc
kf
ckf
uck
fuck
fuck
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damnit................
with all ive ever done in my life im sadly seeing that nothing matters after you leave the territory that you had done it in
this is bullshit
im an angry at the world teenager
fuck i said it
help me
please
cry for help
i dont care
i need out
get me outttt
GET ME THE FUCK OUT OF HERERERERE!!!!!!!!!!!!1
please someone help me
in the ahem older times when slavery was legal we took them out of their own country and moved them to whatever destination that we chose
and by doing this we expected them to do what they were told or they could get the fuck out or be beaten emotionally,indirectly,or directly,or pshyically
no care of what they think even if we were worse people we were the oversee'ers we were god in our own minds
now lets compare my situation
i was taken from my homeland when i hadnt wanted to leave only hoping to find a better place and a better way
now that im here and helped move an entire house without a choice im still expected to do everything i dont want to do because im forever angry with this situation
even though my own mother is allowing things to happen that never should and cusing every single fucking one of them that i wont list online......
shes the fucking oversee'er ive allready been told to leave multiple times.........
bleh
so theres a two month wait for job corps
yeah
and when i get there i get to have a q tip down zeee shaffftttt (!!!!!SHITTT!!!!!))))) pain
what a fucked up world
you know ive seen peoples suicidal tendencies ive never really understood how they could just simply throw so many things away without a care but now i know why
the feeling for escape and free dom
all people have really known their entire lives is conformity and if you dont conform to the populous's standards you fail in life so there is really never a true freedom death is but that freedom you never know what is going on in life you never have controll so why not end it that way sooner?
im starting to accept these ways and starting to feel multiple needs of escape
im going out of my mind in so many multiple ways ive been shaking the entire time ive been typing all of this and i cant make it stop
i want out of this state
this life
this hell
fuck
fuk
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuc
kf
ckf
uck
fuck
fuck
fuckufkc
ufk
cuf
kcufk
cuf
kcuf
cuf
kcufkc
ufk
cufkcuf
ckfufuckf
u
damnit................
with all ive ever done in my life im sadly seeing that nothing matters after you leave the territory that you had done it in
this is bullshit
im an angry at the world teenager
fuck i said it
help me
please
cry for help
i dont care
i need out
get me outttt
GET ME THE FUCK OUT OF HERERERERE!!!!!!!!!!!!1
please someone help me