the greatest, fan of your life...
Well.. had late night practice last night from 8-9. Surprisingly, we got more accomplished in an hour then in our normal 3 hr practices. AJ and Ben came to watch. I love those boys. But there is always drama. Bleh. Anywho, after practice I went to Katy's for poetry night. It was so awesome. They were amazed? by my poems. I dk why though. I love those girls.
I've realized how stupid I am. And I've realized how stupid I was for thinking this could ever work. The thing is, I get too jealous and then I get sad and lonely because I cant have what i want. Fuck. I am so stupid.
I miss last year. No, really.
I just want to hit myself really hard for being so fucking ignorant.
Things wont change. They never do.
But I dont need you to make me feel like shit. I just dont know how to fix it.
AHHHhhhh. I need rescueing.
<.3.
I've realized how stupid I am. And I've realized how stupid I was for thinking this could ever work. The thing is, I get too jealous and then I get sad and lonely because I cant have what i want. Fuck. I am so stupid.
I miss last year. No, really.
I just want to hit myself really hard for being so fucking ignorant.
Things wont change. They never do.
But I dont need you to make me feel like shit. I just dont know how to fix it.
AHHHhhhh. I need rescueing.
<.3.