I won't sleep to prevent dreaming of you.

[my_eternal_star]

The beach was something I cannot explain. At times, I had fun. I consumed enough alcohol to last me through the summer, easily. I learned a lot about myself and about others. I made memories that could never be forgotten and woke up to the landscape of the shorline every morning. I feel as tho a part of my life has now ended. An era has desolved, and i am in no way in control. Perhaps I am being a bit theatrical but I know no other emotion right now. It seems I had my heartbroken daily at this sandy paradise that we escaped to and being back home is now awkward and lonely. Things could be different, but they're not. People change and more importantly feelings change. Now I feel stupid and naive. Ignorance truely is bliss and id almost rather be lied to. In order to redeem myself for souding quite so pathetic, i must say that I did have a lot of fun times and I do love the people that I shared the house with dearly. I'm just having a hard time understanding how someone can let something so great slip away. I'm not strong enough.

On another note. Everyone has left me for vacations and what not. All of my best friends are now gone and I have no one to ramble to. Maybe this is an excuse to contact some old friends.

And oh yeah, I don't sleep anymore.

I guess once you get to the end of the road.. you have no other choice but to turn around and go back.

Time to get back up.

Kels.