and this is something I will NOT..... FOR..... GET
this was actually a conversation w/ stu but on Bitch's screen name.... I hope anyone who cares to read it take it seriously and with fullest meaning
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:48:03 AM): i'll tell you one thing though, I can't wait for the day that we are all in our glory
Sk8terboyrocks (2:48:33 AM): i tell ya cone, im losing hope in that day coming lately
Sk8terboyrocks (2:48:39 AM): one thing after another falls apart
Sk8terboyrocks (2:48:59 AM): what can you build with no foundation left
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:49:13 AM): a new and better foundation
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:49:18 AM): that's my plan
Sk8terboyrocks (2:49:55 AM): everyone is...........decaying..........
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:50:08 AM): explain
Sk8terboyrocks (2:50:19 AM): i cant
Sk8terboyrocks (2:50:38 AM): its just...i dont even know too tired to try to make sense of it all lol
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:50:45 AM): yeah
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:51:39 AM): well having hope and faith requires much patience, once you miss and opportunity you have to try and survive and wait for your day to come if you don't have the strength to bring that day to you faster
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:52:51 AM): i know exactly what is going to happen for our immediate little group, all that is left to do is find the fitting puzzle pieces which in people like our case requires a taste from the past combined with a new wave of thinking
Sk8terboyrocks (2:53:20 AM): we're the kind of people, and by we i mean like all of us the way we should be
Sk8terboyrocks (2:53:30 AM): are the people that should be able to start a renaissance
Sk8terboyrocks (2:53:35 AM): a revolution of ideas...
Sk8terboyrocks (2:53:47 AM): but the world is deaf to our whole generation
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:53:55 AM): and we will my friend, we have before, and we will again
Sk8terboyrocks (2:54:15 AM): i hope so
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:54:48 AM): we've all tasted victory and once a warrior tastes victory... you never turn back, you get pushed back but i don't see any of us running away do you?
Sk8terboyrocks (2:55:12 AM): i see what us is supposed to be
Sk8terboyrocks (2:55:15 AM): fading
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:55:31 AM): there is no "supposed to be"
Sk8terboyrocks (2:55:31 AM): people moving, changing, things never staying the same
Sk8terboyrocks (2:56:42 AM): i can see where were supposed to be...but every road feels like a dead end around here
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:56:50 AM): building a new collective foundation is going to take bringing in new people but it will also take building new foundations for ourselves
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:57:55 AM): that's the hard part about it, i dont know what it is but bringing a bunch of people i never met before together and having an army of people who work together and love eachother seems harder than it did when i was like 16... but anything that has been done before can be done again i think now it just is going to take careful filtering of those who might take us out, something that was not done the first time
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:58:21 AM): we got taken out, we didn't take ourselves out and that's important it means there's a way to rebuild and a way to prevent it from happening again at least to the extent
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:59:19 AM): i dunno, i'm definately regaining alot of what i once had i can feel it, i have that fury again that drives me forward it is just not quite the right time yet and what i want for my friends requires cooperation and maybe even strength in numbers, not large numbers but more than we have
Sk8terboyrocks (2:59:54 AM): ive lost some of the people that have meant the most
Sk8terboyrocks (3:00:02 AM): over nonsense
Sk8terboyrocks (3:00:15 AM): people that were supposed to be there forever
Sk8terboyrocks (3:00:24 AM): i cant trust anyone new anymore
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:00:36 AM): yeah well the past is the past man it is only truely relevent to look at things you can actually change
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:00:44 AM): and its going to take alot of time and effort
Sk8terboyrocks (3:01:16 AM): lately...i dont feel i have the power to change anything, and a few months ago i truly believed i knew how to save the whole damned world
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:01:31 AM): but there are things we all have to work on in order to get a head start and one of those things is, as always, finding a place to go... or buying a place to go now that we are getting older
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:02:05 AM): it just takes alot more cooperation and a little more luck than it used to... and money which is one thing that was not required in the townie days
Sk8terboyrocks (3:02:07 AM): out of this state
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:02:14 AM): wherever it is
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:02:19 AM): it can and will happen
Sk8terboyrocks (3:02:37 AM): brb cig
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:02:44 AM): i just feel bad for whoever gets left out or left behind who deserves to be in
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:02:47 AM): same here
Sk8terboyrocks (3:07:50 AM): you know, i dont even think that many people care anymore
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:12:46 AM): they don't but it doesn't really matter, some people do and that's all it ever takes just don't get yourself down man i mean seriously we are more capable of working on everything and finding happiness than we ever were before, i know it seems kind of like an oxymoron to facts but our potential has only increased
Sk8terboyrocks (3:13:18 AM): in some ways
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:14:59 AM): the only thing really working against us is ourselves man
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:15:30 AM): we are the ones that made most of the mistakes that caused this rut, even though some of those mistakes caused other people to hurt us in the end we are in control
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:18:09 AM): the solution isn't to just not trust anyone or to accept the hand that has been delt to us... one of these days we'll get delt the high cards again and things will seem easy, there is always another hand to be delt
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:19:09 AM): like i said, it is all a matter of puzzle pieces now i know its hard to see it but we are ready for the opportunity, when we get it trust me more will be made out of that opportunity than any other in the past
Sk8terboyrocks (3:19:43 AM): well i hope youre right cone
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:20:00 AM): alot of times i get pessamistic but in the end i KNOW i'm right
Sk8terboyrocks (3:20:05 AM): but im too broken for optimism right now, if that changes awesome
Sk8terboyrocks (3:20:26 AM): i dunno, well talk more tomorrow, i gotta get some rest bro
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:20:34 AM): alright dude, gnight
Sk8terboyrocks (3:21:40 AM): night bro, dont lose the optimistic outlook, its somethin we need to hear more of these days
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:48:03 AM): i'll tell you one thing though, I can't wait for the day that we are all in our glory
Sk8terboyrocks (2:48:33 AM): i tell ya cone, im losing hope in that day coming lately
Sk8terboyrocks (2:48:39 AM): one thing after another falls apart
Sk8terboyrocks (2:48:59 AM): what can you build with no foundation left
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:49:13 AM): a new and better foundation
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:49:18 AM): that's my plan
Sk8terboyrocks (2:49:55 AM): everyone is...........decaying..........
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:50:08 AM): explain
Sk8terboyrocks (2:50:19 AM): i cant
Sk8terboyrocks (2:50:38 AM): its just...i dont even know too tired to try to make sense of it all lol
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:50:45 AM): yeah
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:51:39 AM): well having hope and faith requires much patience, once you miss and opportunity you have to try and survive and wait for your day to come if you don't have the strength to bring that day to you faster
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:52:51 AM): i know exactly what is going to happen for our immediate little group, all that is left to do is find the fitting puzzle pieces which in people like our case requires a taste from the past combined with a new wave of thinking
Sk8terboyrocks (2:53:20 AM): we're the kind of people, and by we i mean like all of us the way we should be
Sk8terboyrocks (2:53:30 AM): are the people that should be able to start a renaissance
Sk8terboyrocks (2:53:35 AM): a revolution of ideas...
Sk8terboyrocks (2:53:47 AM): but the world is deaf to our whole generation
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:53:55 AM): and we will my friend, we have before, and we will again
Sk8terboyrocks (2:54:15 AM): i hope so
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:54:48 AM): we've all tasted victory and once a warrior tastes victory... you never turn back, you get pushed back but i don't see any of us running away do you?
Sk8terboyrocks (2:55:12 AM): i see what us is supposed to be
Sk8terboyrocks (2:55:15 AM): fading
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:55:31 AM): there is no "supposed to be"
Sk8terboyrocks (2:55:31 AM): people moving, changing, things never staying the same
Sk8terboyrocks (2:56:42 AM): i can see where were supposed to be...but every road feels like a dead end around here
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:56:50 AM): building a new collective foundation is going to take bringing in new people but it will also take building new foundations for ourselves
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:57:55 AM): that's the hard part about it, i dont know what it is but bringing a bunch of people i never met before together and having an army of people who work together and love eachother seems harder than it did when i was like 16... but anything that has been done before can be done again i think now it just is going to take careful filtering of those who might take us out, something that was not done the first time
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:58:21 AM): we got taken out, we didn't take ourselves out and that's important it means there's a way to rebuild and a way to prevent it from happening again at least to the extent
ERASEtoIMPROVE (2:59:19 AM): i dunno, i'm definately regaining alot of what i once had i can feel it, i have that fury again that drives me forward it is just not quite the right time yet and what i want for my friends requires cooperation and maybe even strength in numbers, not large numbers but more than we have
Sk8terboyrocks (2:59:54 AM): ive lost some of the people that have meant the most
Sk8terboyrocks (3:00:02 AM): over nonsense
Sk8terboyrocks (3:00:15 AM): people that were supposed to be there forever
Sk8terboyrocks (3:00:24 AM): i cant trust anyone new anymore
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:00:36 AM): yeah well the past is the past man it is only truely relevent to look at things you can actually change
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:00:44 AM): and its going to take alot of time and effort
Sk8terboyrocks (3:01:16 AM): lately...i dont feel i have the power to change anything, and a few months ago i truly believed i knew how to save the whole damned world
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:01:31 AM): but there are things we all have to work on in order to get a head start and one of those things is, as always, finding a place to go... or buying a place to go now that we are getting older
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:02:05 AM): it just takes alot more cooperation and a little more luck than it used to... and money which is one thing that was not required in the townie days
Sk8terboyrocks (3:02:07 AM): out of this state
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:02:14 AM): wherever it is
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:02:19 AM): it can and will happen
Sk8terboyrocks (3:02:37 AM): brb cig
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:02:44 AM): i just feel bad for whoever gets left out or left behind who deserves to be in
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:02:47 AM): same here
Sk8terboyrocks (3:07:50 AM): you know, i dont even think that many people care anymore
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:12:46 AM): they don't but it doesn't really matter, some people do and that's all it ever takes just don't get yourself down man i mean seriously we are more capable of working on everything and finding happiness than we ever were before, i know it seems kind of like an oxymoron to facts but our potential has only increased
Sk8terboyrocks (3:13:18 AM): in some ways
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:14:59 AM): the only thing really working against us is ourselves man
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:15:30 AM): we are the ones that made most of the mistakes that caused this rut, even though some of those mistakes caused other people to hurt us in the end we are in control
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:18:09 AM): the solution isn't to just not trust anyone or to accept the hand that has been delt to us... one of these days we'll get delt the high cards again and things will seem easy, there is always another hand to be delt
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:19:09 AM): like i said, it is all a matter of puzzle pieces now i know its hard to see it but we are ready for the opportunity, when we get it trust me more will be made out of that opportunity than any other in the past
Sk8terboyrocks (3:19:43 AM): well i hope youre right cone
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:20:00 AM): alot of times i get pessamistic but in the end i KNOW i'm right
Sk8terboyrocks (3:20:05 AM): but im too broken for optimism right now, if that changes awesome
Sk8terboyrocks (3:20:26 AM): i dunno, well talk more tomorrow, i gotta get some rest bro
ERASEtoIMPROVE (3:20:34 AM): alright dude, gnight
Sk8terboyrocks (3:21:40 AM): night bro, dont lose the optimistic outlook, its somethin we need to hear more of these days