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So as we grow older we will have to go through things that will make us stronger. Even if that thing that makes us the strongest could very well be one of the worst things that one would have to go through in life. Life seems so strange to me sometimes. One moment its amazing, and the next one wishes they could live by just sleeping, not having to deal with reality and all its troubles. I've learned not to put all of one's trust into someone. Even if that someone is the one you care for the most. They may very well not feel the same way. You may live life having those "friends" who never were your friends to start...only cared when there was good enough gossip. There will be that boy who lets you down more than once and yet you still give him your heart, after everything. Life is one confusing series of events I like to believe. I still love living through it all though. There are more joys in my life than sorrow. Well, atleast I like to bring the joys to light more than the sorrows. Who wants to live life being depressed 24/7? Not me thats for sure. I'm definitely blessed for the amount of friends i have and the great relationships i have with them all. I have a very diverse group of friends with totally different personalities but i love them all the same. And I know they feel the same way about me bc they show it in there actions and are always there for me, always. Unlike some people i have come incontact with whom I had stupidly and easily given them my heart and trust and they never showed the same trust and love in their actions but that didn't bother me....at the time. I trusted a liar, I was honest with a liar, I cared for a liar, I would have given the world to that liar, I lovingly gave him nothing but a peicce of my heart and that wasn't good enough. Sorry, my dear valentine....sorry I wasn't good enough to get the same respect and love which I have always shown you, always. <3 times infinity...remember....<3, always...remember? Well anyway getting back to the point of this entry is that one cannot go through life blinded. One must chose to see the truth no matter how much it may hurt. Um, when given a flashlight...Use it! LOL i guess you could say that? ...Well. it makes sense to me. Because i was given the flashlight and i chose not to accept it and chose to stay in the dark, sheltered. Living a sheltered life is not good. Not everyone you may come incontact with is good. You may believe somethign could never happen to you because you are an amazing person but believe me now it may as wel just happen. That is what i stupidly believed. BELIEVED, in the past tense. As you can tell I no longer believe this because i chose not to get hurt by stupid, selfish people over and over again. Once is way more than enough. i thought i meant the world to him but I didn't i was just another bump in the road for him. I thought I was his only one but i wasn't he "cared" for another. I thought he could never let me down, but he did..more than once. I thought I was the perfect girl for him and we were a match made in heaven....but i was very wrong. So to all of you the point I'd like to get across is be careful who you give all of your trust to because they may very well be the one person you should trust the least. And to not let yourself be hurt by selfish people. there are actually people out there who will hurt you at any cost...just as long as they get what they want. I did not believe this but now I do. So now I feel like I'm rambling because I've said the same thing, just resated like a million times, lol....oh well as long as i get my point across its all good.

<3 my love

oh, sweet boy you meant everything to me

but how easily it is to look back now and know you were nothing to me

ta ta for now