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im sorry i dissapeared for awhile. my anxiety has left me restless and i can hardly stand still. everytime i approached the computer i would sit down and auotmatically get up again just b/c i cant stand to sit. I feel like i have so much to get done and even when i know that i cant do something right then, b/c of no car or whatever, i just pace around, trying to find something to do with myself! I got a job which im kind of excited about. Im doing stock so i will be able to keep moving and it will eat up my time..between school and work i will only have 2 and 1/2 hours to myself on weekdays. and that time i will probably have to spend doing school work once school strarts rolling. So im excited for all the time i will get to starve. I wanted to loose 10 pounds before school started and im half way there. and then i want to loose another 10 the first week back. i know i can do it b/c i have done it before. This is my senior year. its time to be focused. i have to save every penny to get out of here. i havnt been to the doctors in over a month b/c my mom says i need a break from treatment....of course i didnt tell her you cant take a break from recovering. its her own stupidity. I lied when i was at my last check up. and i will keep lieing till all these doctors are out of my life. I have not gotten better with their help so i will be just fine with out it.