Jan 30, 2005 22:56
I feel more flexible. But only to be bent into shapes at my will, and never yours. There are interesting people in my life, but I know that they are here to serve some purpose- or defeat some- for the time being.
Friends have never been constant for me. Or perhaps I am the inconsistency. The last idea is the one I like the most. I don’t like needing people. I think it’s a terrible weakness. Best to rely on myself for steadiness. Well, I need people to an extent, but I’ve never placed too much need in one particular person. Keep them, or more accurately, myself at a distance.
Claimed to be stopping my daily drinking for a month or two. That state of mind lasted a little less than a week. With this new semester, I’m sure to quickly become bored with the day-to-day and fill them with intoxication.
Solitude is less sweet when it occurs in sobriety.
Im beginning to like myself more. I like the way I look and move. The way I speak and dont speak. The way I am. There is still so much further. But I feel closer right now.