meta dreaming
Oh god, that was awful. Let me tell you about it!
Sometimes, when I fall asleep during the day, I have terrible dreams that usually consist of not being able to wake up. Yes, I dream about being asleep. It sounds very boring, until you realize that the entire time I'm asleep/dreaming I'm trying desperately to wake up. The whole dream is based around this.
So today, I was reading on the couch and had a bit of a headache--this is the real part, not the dream yet--and thought that since Mr. Daroga would be home soon, it'd be okay to just take a little nap. I dreamed that I'd fallen asleep on the couch while watching Dario Argento's Phantom of the Opera. This is logical since I'm in a roleplay where my Erik has had sex with the Persian and given birth to Julian Sands--that's also real, not dream, by the way. Anyway, I was watching the movie (in the dream) but I realized at one point that I was actually asleep, or at least had my eyes closed, so everything that had happened I'd made up. And then I was thinking, "hey, I should remember this, because it's actually quite cool and frankly better than the actual movie."
I really wish I *did* remember, because it was incredibly screwed up. It involved an actual copy of the Leroux novel and the haunting of a girl by the shady-hot Julian Sands character. And lots of gory death.
So next in the dream, Mr. Daroga comes home and I saw hi and get up to take the movie out of the player, remembering once again that my cool version of the movie didn't exist, and I turned to him and said, "Wait. I'm still asleep. You have to help me wake up."
He didn't know what I was talking about, but he came over and held me and started talking to me, I dunno if it was meant to break me out of the dream-state or not. I'm not sure if I thought he was real and I was dreaming, or if I knew he wasn't but couldn't address the real world to wake me up. Because of course he wasn't actually there.
See, my bad dreams commonly take this form, which I've discovered is called sleep paralysis. Lots of people report negative sensations; I always get Mr. Daroga coming home and talking to me and me not being able to respond. It's very very real. Because in my dream/paralyzed state, I'm in exactly the same place I am in real life. So it's very difficult to tell whether I'm dreaming or not. And someone will come in and talk to me and I just can't open my eyes or respond.
Anyway this time it devolved (or maybe evolved) into a dream about the Young Ones, who were all together to do some show and I was in an audience and nearly everyone had come in fours dressed as the characters. Yay.
Then Mr. Daroga really came home and I woke up. But I was very disoriented and upset. And I still am, which is why if you read this and it doesn't make sense, that's why.
Sometimes, when I fall asleep during the day, I have terrible dreams that usually consist of not being able to wake up. Yes, I dream about being asleep. It sounds very boring, until you realize that the entire time I'm asleep/dreaming I'm trying desperately to wake up. The whole dream is based around this.
So today, I was reading on the couch and had a bit of a headache--this is the real part, not the dream yet--and thought that since Mr. Daroga would be home soon, it'd be okay to just take a little nap. I dreamed that I'd fallen asleep on the couch while watching Dario Argento's Phantom of the Opera. This is logical since I'm in a roleplay where my Erik has had sex with the Persian and given birth to Julian Sands--that's also real, not dream, by the way. Anyway, I was watching the movie (in the dream) but I realized at one point that I was actually asleep, or at least had my eyes closed, so everything that had happened I'd made up. And then I was thinking, "hey, I should remember this, because it's actually quite cool and frankly better than the actual movie."
I really wish I *did* remember, because it was incredibly screwed up. It involved an actual copy of the Leroux novel and the haunting of a girl by the shady-hot Julian Sands character. And lots of gory death.
So next in the dream, Mr. Daroga comes home and I saw hi and get up to take the movie out of the player, remembering once again that my cool version of the movie didn't exist, and I turned to him and said, "Wait. I'm still asleep. You have to help me wake up."
He didn't know what I was talking about, but he came over and held me and started talking to me, I dunno if it was meant to break me out of the dream-state or not. I'm not sure if I thought he was real and I was dreaming, or if I knew he wasn't but couldn't address the real world to wake me up. Because of course he wasn't actually there.
See, my bad dreams commonly take this form, which I've discovered is called sleep paralysis. Lots of people report negative sensations; I always get Mr. Daroga coming home and talking to me and me not being able to respond. It's very very real. Because in my dream/paralyzed state, I'm in exactly the same place I am in real life. So it's very difficult to tell whether I'm dreaming or not. And someone will come in and talk to me and I just can't open my eyes or respond.
Anyway this time it devolved (or maybe evolved) into a dream about the Young Ones, who were all together to do some show and I was in an audience and nearly everyone had come in fours dressed as the characters. Yay.
Then Mr. Daroga really came home and I woke up. But I was very disoriented and upset. And I still am, which is why if you read this and it doesn't make sense, that's why.