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So today we were very busy at work. It sucked. It's so sad, I like a boy but I can't tell people about it. Oh well. Don't ask me to tell you...I'm not going to. YOu know what? I feel happy. Recently I have been happy. I cried yesterday during the OC but it wasn't cause I was really sad. Actually, I didn't really have a reason. I teared up during the show and then when I was going downstairs to eat chili I started to cry. And then I cried harder. No reason though, I was just like, "I want to cry" so I did. I'm becoming less dependent on boys. Or maybe it's just because I am allowing myself to have a little more fun and talk to boys. I like having guy friends. People I can talk to. Guys are fun. More of my girl friends are suicidal or sad/depressed. I kinda feel left out. But that's ok. I don't want to grow up and have scars on my body that I'll feel bad about. I'm happy. My scars are gone pretty much and my emotional scars are fading. I feel...refreshed. I love this earth. It's beautiful. There is so much evil in the world but still there is beauty everywhere around me. And soon there will be snow. I love looking at snow because it sparkles! Bye bye!