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Well it's been months since I had a real update....and it's been a really long time since I have read all of your entries....I miss you guys so much! *sighs*
So anyway....life is pretty good at the moment....
I'm going to see NIN on Tuesday and I'm fucking happier than ever! I tried getting tickets when they went on sale and they sold out soooo fast, but I managed to get my hands on 3 :) I'm one lucky bastard! So who wants to touch me? haha! I'm gay sometimes....
I had a job interview the other day with Bank Of America....I hope it went a lot better than I'm thinking it did. I don't want to work for a bank, but shit- they have really good benefits and they pay 80% of childcare...which is awesome considering how much I pay a year for that...I think last year...Kandyce was in daycare from Feb until September and I paid a little over $4500....it's crazy!
So I'm going to Salt Lake City next month....I can't even figure out why. I was originally going to try to win Russell's heart....but of course that had to fall thru....just found out like 2 days ago that he's got a girl now...so I'm heart broken over that...somewhat. It's all good though...I'm gonna hang with JR and a few other people and I'm still totally looking forward to that. It's not even about the people there anymore....it's about staying in a really nice condo in the mountains...the resort I'm staying at has a 27,000 sq ft spa....I have a feeling I'll be spending a LOT of time at the resort ;)
I've been single entirely too long now...it's getting kinda boring. I hate growing up and maturing....things are so different now. Everyone my age is getting married or are in committed relationships and have kids and don't go out anymore. I'm feeling 18 again....I wanna go out and party....I wanna date again....get drunk when I please...I wanna hang with my friends, go to shows and have NO responsibilies. Those were the good ol days....I miss being immature sometimes...I miss being a stupid teenager......
Ack! I really miss how things were with Russell...I miss him calling me like 5 times a day....I miss talking to him.....he lives 1700 miles from me....so I dunno why I keep letting this get me down. When he flew out here in March and hung with my for my birthday....that meant so much to me....the first 2 nights with him were awesome....more than awesome....and then the last 2 days he was here were awkward and not much fun....rather depressing even. Once he left...things just weren't the same anymore and I haven't heard from him much since then....he said he wanted to talk less because he didn't want to like me more since nothing could come of us because of the distance....but I don't understand why so many people are totally against long distance relationships.....it never hurts to try...you know? I think I pushed too hard for something to happen....He said he really liked me, but he didn't know what to do or what to think....but it doesn't even matter anymore....I've poured my heart out to him a few times....damn drunkeness....and still....nothing....not even a reply...damn my luck! He has a girlfriend now, so it's time to let go....
I got a haircut a few weeks ago....my hair is layered now....I hate it....makes me look 12.....I wanna dye it...but I dunno what color. I was gonna do red, but I want blue and purple again.....but having that would prolly prevent me from finding a better job. I like my job now- but it just doesn't pay enough...tho I did get a raise :) YAY for me!
Well anyway...I'm sleepy.....so I'm gonna crash...
Here's my newest pics....took it right before I chopped off my hair:
Those of you on myspace have most likely already seen these...but oh well :P
So anyway....life is pretty good at the moment....
I'm going to see NIN on Tuesday and I'm fucking happier than ever! I tried getting tickets when they went on sale and they sold out soooo fast, but I managed to get my hands on 3 :) I'm one lucky bastard! So who wants to touch me? haha! I'm gay sometimes....
I had a job interview the other day with Bank Of America....I hope it went a lot better than I'm thinking it did. I don't want to work for a bank, but shit- they have really good benefits and they pay 80% of childcare...which is awesome considering how much I pay a year for that...I think last year...Kandyce was in daycare from Feb until September and I paid a little over $4500....it's crazy!
So I'm going to Salt Lake City next month....I can't even figure out why. I was originally going to try to win Russell's heart....but of course that had to fall thru....just found out like 2 days ago that he's got a girl now...so I'm heart broken over that...somewhat. It's all good though...I'm gonna hang with JR and a few other people and I'm still totally looking forward to that. It's not even about the people there anymore....it's about staying in a really nice condo in the mountains...the resort I'm staying at has a 27,000 sq ft spa....I have a feeling I'll be spending a LOT of time at the resort ;)
I've been single entirely too long now...it's getting kinda boring. I hate growing up and maturing....things are so different now. Everyone my age is getting married or are in committed relationships and have kids and don't go out anymore. I'm feeling 18 again....I wanna go out and party....I wanna date again....get drunk when I please...I wanna hang with my friends, go to shows and have NO responsibilies. Those were the good ol days....I miss being immature sometimes...I miss being a stupid teenager......
Ack! I really miss how things were with Russell...I miss him calling me like 5 times a day....I miss talking to him.....he lives 1700 miles from me....so I dunno why I keep letting this get me down. When he flew out here in March and hung with my for my birthday....that meant so much to me....the first 2 nights with him were awesome....more than awesome....and then the last 2 days he was here were awkward and not much fun....rather depressing even. Once he left...things just weren't the same anymore and I haven't heard from him much since then....he said he wanted to talk less because he didn't want to like me more since nothing could come of us because of the distance....but I don't understand why so many people are totally against long distance relationships.....it never hurts to try...you know? I think I pushed too hard for something to happen....He said he really liked me, but he didn't know what to do or what to think....but it doesn't even matter anymore....I've poured my heart out to him a few times....damn drunkeness....and still....nothing....not even a reply...damn my luck! He has a girlfriend now, so it's time to let go....
I got a haircut a few weeks ago....my hair is layered now....I hate it....makes me look 12.....I wanna dye it...but I dunno what color. I was gonna do red, but I want blue and purple again.....but having that would prolly prevent me from finding a better job. I like my job now- but it just doesn't pay enough...tho I did get a raise :) YAY for me!
Well anyway...I'm sleepy.....so I'm gonna crash...
Here's my newest pics....took it right before I chopped off my hair:
Those of you on myspace have most likely already seen these...but oh well :P