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today was an interesting day that i actually have the motivation to write about.
went to antonios with tiff, ashley, nicole and sara-- ate tons of garlic rolls which i could still taste now after brushing twice...
-there, we all began this conversation abotu friends we used to have back in middle school and how they've changed. then one popped up in the next booth, we laughed and whispered, and continued the conversation. the names kept popping up and popping up even after we got to the movies and saw "white noise" and waited forl ike an hour for the movie to start. i swear me and sara were starting to see people after that! thinking we saw particular random people from our pasts, but really..it wasnt them haha
it was weird though, that i mentioned a particular person to sara, as the only person, really, who acknowledged my existence, was consistently nice to me no matter how i looked or my social status in school and continuously showed enthusiasm in knowing who i was. the topic changed and i must have said "jesus christ" a total amount of 50 times during that stupid movie, and we went home.
we had a few laughs, and i dropped sara off at home, praying that my defrost would kick in at some point so the windows stopped fogging, and i see a couple of people on the side of the road. as i pass i recognize them and by the time it comes to my brain i have already passed. it was this particular person who had made such a bizarre impact on my life right there just after i had mentioned him!! i thought, what if its not? what if i stop and people think i'm some kind of psycho then i have to drive home completely embarassed. i decide theres not much to lose, because i was pretty sure my eyes didnt decieve me. i stop, reverse, and open my window to say hi and he says, "who are you?"
..my heart almost dropped upon realization that he no longer knew who i was, but sure enough, as he got closer, he yelled MELANIE!! and asked me how i'm doing, brought up forgotten memories of the past, and informed me he knew exactly where i went to school. he had been doing well in his life and had not fallen into the depths of loserdom like the rest of his so-called "popular" friends from high school. i was glad, and i was glad i had stopped. now, i hold in my hand the business card of a person who i had just decided to admit tonight, changed my life.
its funny how they say the little things make all the difference. i was once invisible, no one cared to know me or wonder why i was the girl who sat in the back of the class and talked to no one. this person paid me attention and did not make fun of me when other people did. he did not follow his friends and act like i didnt exist. thats one thing you can appreciate at such a delicate time in your life. i honestly did not have a friend, and although he probably did not think twice about me once he had paid me that breif amout of attention, i still remembered what he had done, even now.
i told him that too, i told him exactly what he had done for me. all he said was "get out of here! you were cool, i always remembered you!" and i smiled.
now, i wonder, is it possible that maybe i could or have done the same for someone else?
went to antonios with tiff, ashley, nicole and sara-- ate tons of garlic rolls which i could still taste now after brushing twice...
-there, we all began this conversation abotu friends we used to have back in middle school and how they've changed. then one popped up in the next booth, we laughed and whispered, and continued the conversation. the names kept popping up and popping up even after we got to the movies and saw "white noise" and waited forl ike an hour for the movie to start. i swear me and sara were starting to see people after that! thinking we saw particular random people from our pasts, but really..it wasnt them haha
it was weird though, that i mentioned a particular person to sara, as the only person, really, who acknowledged my existence, was consistently nice to me no matter how i looked or my social status in school and continuously showed enthusiasm in knowing who i was. the topic changed and i must have said "jesus christ" a total amount of 50 times during that stupid movie, and we went home.
we had a few laughs, and i dropped sara off at home, praying that my defrost would kick in at some point so the windows stopped fogging, and i see a couple of people on the side of the road. as i pass i recognize them and by the time it comes to my brain i have already passed. it was this particular person who had made such a bizarre impact on my life right there just after i had mentioned him!! i thought, what if its not? what if i stop and people think i'm some kind of psycho then i have to drive home completely embarassed. i decide theres not much to lose, because i was pretty sure my eyes didnt decieve me. i stop, reverse, and open my window to say hi and he says, "who are you?"
..my heart almost dropped upon realization that he no longer knew who i was, but sure enough, as he got closer, he yelled MELANIE!! and asked me how i'm doing, brought up forgotten memories of the past, and informed me he knew exactly where i went to school. he had been doing well in his life and had not fallen into the depths of loserdom like the rest of his so-called "popular" friends from high school. i was glad, and i was glad i had stopped. now, i hold in my hand the business card of a person who i had just decided to admit tonight, changed my life.
its funny how they say the little things make all the difference. i was once invisible, no one cared to know me or wonder why i was the girl who sat in the back of the class and talked to no one. this person paid me attention and did not make fun of me when other people did. he did not follow his friends and act like i didnt exist. thats one thing you can appreciate at such a delicate time in your life. i honestly did not have a friend, and although he probably did not think twice about me once he had paid me that breif amout of attention, i still remembered what he had done, even now.
i told him that too, i told him exactly what he had done for me. all he said was "get out of here! you were cool, i always remembered you!" and i smiled.
now, i wonder, is it possible that maybe i could or have done the same for someone else?