Scrap3d Knees From Falling Hard
if i fall, will you still love me ?
Is it me, or does this emotional plunder come for no apparent reason?
Am I simply overreacting to miniscule details, brought on by my own mind?
Why is it that this sort of thing always happens to me?
I wish i was beautiful
I wish I could have pretty eyes
I wish I could be the best for once
I wish I wouldn't end up alone
But maybe, it is me who is doing this to myself
With every day
Maybe, I am breaking my own wings
Why cant I write good poetry anymore?
Why arent my ideas original?
It's as if the creative side of me has died
And all that's left is this epiphany
That leaves me in a Slump
Again
This cycle never ends
And no matter how many times it happens
It always comes back again
XxX For some reason right now I feel as if i am un-loved. I know I shouldn't even care, it shouldn't even matter to me, i should be so damn used to it by now. But, there is something about falling for someone that , when rejected, brings a complete blow to the face. The weird thing is i'm not rejected. I have a serious problem with trust and in-security, however, and I think being barred from speaking to my love has brought on this false sense of pain. And then there's the fact that i don't want him to think im crazy (or, for that matter, crazier ;p) because i dont know how he really feels about me. I do, yet I don't. Why am I so fucking confused? FUCK teen angst. FUCK being bi-polar. Mood Assortment Medication would be good about now. In fact, I dont know why im still having such mood swings; I take my happy pills every day. so what the hell. atom, if you're reading this, discard the fact that i feel rejected. i know that I care for you and I hope you feel the same. XxX
Alright Enough Of My Emotional Bullshit.
Is it me, or does this emotional plunder come for no apparent reason?
Am I simply overreacting to miniscule details, brought on by my own mind?
Why is it that this sort of thing always happens to me?
I wish i was beautiful
I wish I could have pretty eyes
I wish I could be the best for once
I wish I wouldn't end up alone
But maybe, it is me who is doing this to myself
With every day
Maybe, I am breaking my own wings
Why cant I write good poetry anymore?
Why arent my ideas original?
It's as if the creative side of me has died
And all that's left is this epiphany
That leaves me in a Slump
Again
This cycle never ends
And no matter how many times it happens
It always comes back again
XxX For some reason right now I feel as if i am un-loved. I know I shouldn't even care, it shouldn't even matter to me, i should be so damn used to it by now. But, there is something about falling for someone that , when rejected, brings a complete blow to the face. The weird thing is i'm not rejected. I have a serious problem with trust and in-security, however, and I think being barred from speaking to my love has brought on this false sense of pain. And then there's the fact that i don't want him to think im crazy (or, for that matter, crazier ;p) because i dont know how he really feels about me. I do, yet I don't. Why am I so fucking confused? FUCK teen angst. FUCK being bi-polar. Mood Assortment Medication would be good about now. In fact, I dont know why im still having such mood swings; I take my happy pills every day. so what the hell. atom, if you're reading this, discard the fact that i feel rejected. i know that I care for you and I hope you feel the same. XxX
Alright Enough Of My Emotional Bullshit.