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You know... I never thought there would be a time in my life when I'd be so happy that the summer is ending. Summer used to be my time to completely shut down. I didn't have to think, didn't have to do any work, didn't have to do anything but hang out with friends and have a good time. This summer has been the most distinct and different that I can remember. With the move a lot of things changed, but I had time to realize that it was going to be different before I had to live at my house which was good. I saw a lot of my friends from home, albiet not enough. My new house is really, really nice. I like it a lot.
That being said. I'm bored out of my mind here. And as much as I want to go back to school, I don't want to offend my mom. Haha. I hope she realizes that its not an insult that I'm losing my mind here. I just really want to go back to Umass. I don't think its the freedom or feelings of being independent because honestly I have that at home. My mom especially, has always been the one to back me on anything I do. She's awesome. And my dad, although aloof most of the time, is just as cool. I'd like to think that I'm like them in a lot of ways, which is weird because you always see in movies, tv, and hear about people who absolutely hate their parents. I hope that I can be just as good a parent when I have kids some day. That's a scary thought.
I just think it's the people at Umass. Everyone is so interesting, and different, and fun to be around. And I have to my job to be a lot more outgoing this year. To do a lot more, meet a lot more people, and just enjoy myself. I get caught up a lot thinking about things that I really have no control over. Or when I am feeling happy or enthusiastic to remember things that just end up making me feel bad. I just need to remember that I'm still growing up and I need to make some stupid mistakes, do some things I'll regret, and to enjoy being irresponsible.
I've been running a lot and although I haven't been to the gym I feel like I'm in a lot better shape. I told Phil that I would go running with him in the morning once we get back to Umass. That's probably a bad idea, but if anyone can push me to wake up early and do something its probably Phil. I'm also excited to get back to the wellness center in Washington and start lifting again. Which seems weird to me even as I type it but its true.
Basically, I'm just wicked happy that school is going to start up soon. I'm wicked excited that things are going well. And I just feel great right now. Huzzah.
That being said. I'm bored out of my mind here. And as much as I want to go back to school, I don't want to offend my mom. Haha. I hope she realizes that its not an insult that I'm losing my mind here. I just really want to go back to Umass. I don't think its the freedom or feelings of being independent because honestly I have that at home. My mom especially, has always been the one to back me on anything I do. She's awesome. And my dad, although aloof most of the time, is just as cool. I'd like to think that I'm like them in a lot of ways, which is weird because you always see in movies, tv, and hear about people who absolutely hate their parents. I hope that I can be just as good a parent when I have kids some day. That's a scary thought.
I just think it's the people at Umass. Everyone is so interesting, and different, and fun to be around. And I have to my job to be a lot more outgoing this year. To do a lot more, meet a lot more people, and just enjoy myself. I get caught up a lot thinking about things that I really have no control over. Or when I am feeling happy or enthusiastic to remember things that just end up making me feel bad. I just need to remember that I'm still growing up and I need to make some stupid mistakes, do some things I'll regret, and to enjoy being irresponsible.
I've been running a lot and although I haven't been to the gym I feel like I'm in a lot better shape. I told Phil that I would go running with him in the morning once we get back to Umass. That's probably a bad idea, but if anyone can push me to wake up early and do something its probably Phil. I'm also excited to get back to the wellness center in Washington and start lifting again. Which seems weird to me even as I type it but its true.
Basically, I'm just wicked happy that school is going to start up soon. I'm wicked excited that things are going well. And I just feel great right now. Huzzah.