Well I guess its my turn...
To give one last big entry before heading off to college.
This summer has been the best of my life. I started it with a trip that will last with me for many years to come. Learned many things about myself and the people I know. I learned that I could survive on my own miles away from the home I so love. From the people I love. I learned how to forget about myself. How to lose all my stupid reasons and inhibitions. I learned not to think so much.
And in returning, I found that I was happy. Happy to see all the faces I missed and even the ones I hadn't. I know I've talked endlessly about it, and have frustrated some people to no end. But it was one of the high points of my life, as sad as that may be.
Happiness is not something common to me. I seem like a peaceful person and I am, but peace and happiness do not necessarily coincide. Happiness comes from satisfaction, in one form or another. And to say that I have been less than satisfied in the past few years is an understatement. But I find myself spending these dwindling days of summer with friends and I feel satisfied. I am happy.
I don't know what the future holds. I don't know what will happen week to week, day to day, minute to minute. Thats okay with me. I have no regrets about the last few years. And only one wish, that I may one day find passion. It is the thing that I have lacked all these years. Some driving force to push in one direction, and to keep me going. I've simply existed, neither good nor bad. And for the longest time I was shut off. But I've found fairly recently that I too can be happy.
I go into these next few college years ready for whatever comes my way. Prepared with a few years of adolescent indiscretion and an open mind. I hope I find something that I can honestly say I'd be willing to devote my life to. But most of all, I hope in the end and along the way I find happiness. And I wish the same for everyone else I know. Friends and Enemies alike.
This summer has been the best of my life. I started it with a trip that will last with me for many years to come. Learned many things about myself and the people I know. I learned that I could survive on my own miles away from the home I so love. From the people I love. I learned how to forget about myself. How to lose all my stupid reasons and inhibitions. I learned not to think so much.
And in returning, I found that I was happy. Happy to see all the faces I missed and even the ones I hadn't. I know I've talked endlessly about it, and have frustrated some people to no end. But it was one of the high points of my life, as sad as that may be.
Happiness is not something common to me. I seem like a peaceful person and I am, but peace and happiness do not necessarily coincide. Happiness comes from satisfaction, in one form or another. And to say that I have been less than satisfied in the past few years is an understatement. But I find myself spending these dwindling days of summer with friends and I feel satisfied. I am happy.
I don't know what the future holds. I don't know what will happen week to week, day to day, minute to minute. Thats okay with me. I have no regrets about the last few years. And only one wish, that I may one day find passion. It is the thing that I have lacked all these years. Some driving force to push in one direction, and to keep me going. I've simply existed, neither good nor bad. And for the longest time I was shut off. But I've found fairly recently that I too can be happy.
I go into these next few college years ready for whatever comes my way. Prepared with a few years of adolescent indiscretion and an open mind. I hope I find something that I can honestly say I'd be willing to devote my life to. But most of all, I hope in the end and along the way I find happiness. And I wish the same for everyone else I know. Friends and Enemies alike.