I can't stay
He's in denial that I'm leaving and that its over. I don't know why he would still want to stay together. He's hurt me worse than anyone and I can't stay just to be miserable for the rest of my life.
Sometimes things just don't work out. It's too late and I really need to get away from him. I don't want to change my mind.
He's the one that thinks he's too good for me and that no one else will ever want me. Then he should let me go and find that girl that's good enough for him since it clearly is not me.
Why would I even second guess my decision for a second. Because he was nice for a moment? Those moments never last and each time he lashes out it gets worse. I'll never let him strike me again. I deserve better. If he does it once hell do it again. There's no turning back now.
He tried to break me down mentally and emotionally. I think I saw through him and am too strong for that bullshit. Then he changed tactics but its too late. Is was a relationship not a fucking game of chess.
I tiptoed around him for a week and realized I'm much better off without him. Much happier. I really wish it wasn't a waste of time but that's all it was. Maybe I did learn something but it wasn't worth the years I can't take back.
I read back to the beginning and found myself here so many times before. But this is the last time. I'll never be here again.
Hopefully I'll never shed a tear for him again either.
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