you set my wings ablaze
ok. lets just say yesterday wasnt the best day.
it was in the beginning though.
but friday-went and slept at ashleys. my god it was awesome.
i clicked my heels and fell in the snow,
we made hemp belts that were too short.
and we played DDR for countless hours.
watched waynes world and waynes world two. and my girl.
that movie made me cry.
went to bed at fourish and laughed at the heater.
summer is going to be so much fun.<3
yesterday-woke up 12ish stayed at ashleys till 3ish.
walked home.
my dad yelled at me when i got back because he didnt remind me of a change in my guitar lesson schedule...
the ari and ash came over.
Called up Matt to see if he wanted to go to the movies. but he couldnt his parents were out of town =\
But since Ashley and Eric were neighbors, I called up Eric to come and reunite for shits and giggles.
so we all went and picked up Colin and Eric. haha Colin has got to have the best laugh.
ever.
we originally wanted to go see Ring 2. but Eric said he wanted to go see Constantine.
So I took Eric to stand there for the first scene.
because it was flippin sweet.
Then we just sat down for the movie.
We called the others but they didn't want to budge.
Well when we got out we compared to the two movies and Esther and Lyndsey were standing there.
It was good to see Esther again.=)
all went back to my house.
big big mistake.
my mom got all pissed and called me upstairs and yelled at me.
at least she didnt hit me
in front of them.
Then she said
get all these fucking kids home right fucking now.
And i said fine! we'll leave in 10 mins.
But she came down after about 30 seconds and herded us into the car while saying unecessary things.
I HATE crying in front of people.
I hate it more than anything.
I've only done it about twice in my life
and this was the second time.
And Eric was there for my shoulder to cry on.
Iv'e never had that before=\
Ashley was there for me too. love you so much for that.
I felt so incredibly bad about it it was my fault.
Then When Eric got home Kate was pissed because esther told her we were holding hands when we were doing nothing of the sort.
So Kate's not talking to me.
And there was a point when Eric said he couldn't hang around me anymore.
Oh well. Id rather have both of them happy than me happy....
I don't really remember the rest of the night.
I just remember my eyes stinging fucking bad because of the crying and
my arm hurts like hell now....
Well i dont know.
I fixed things with Barrie.
and i think things are slowly going uphill for Eric and Kate.
But Kate's not talking to me...
I hate finding out when she is upset from me, i hear it from everyone but her. always.
ah fuck it what ever.
Its just a stupid fucking good intention gone wrong.
I think i should just stop trying to make people happy it fucks everything up.
Sorry to everyone associated yesterday. Truly I am. I never meant to fuck anything up.
xx.itsmyfault
__dont ask about the sn. I was bored and tired leave me be__
Things that made me happy-
J o h n. He cheered me up beyond beleif last night I he's getting the biggest fucking hug when i see him tomorrow for it. thank you.
it was in the beginning though.
but friday-went and slept at ashleys. my god it was awesome.
i clicked my heels and fell in the snow,
we made hemp belts that were too short.
and we played DDR for countless hours.
watched waynes world and waynes world two. and my girl.
that movie made me cry.
went to bed at fourish and laughed at the heater.
summer is going to be so much fun.<3
yesterday-woke up 12ish stayed at ashleys till 3ish.
walked home.
my dad yelled at me when i got back because he didnt remind me of a change in my guitar lesson schedule...
the ari and ash came over.
Called up Matt to see if he wanted to go to the movies. but he couldnt his parents were out of town =\
But since Ashley and Eric were neighbors, I called up Eric to come and reunite for shits and giggles.
so we all went and picked up Colin and Eric. haha Colin has got to have the best laugh.
ever.
we originally wanted to go see Ring 2. but Eric said he wanted to go see Constantine.
So I took Eric to stand there for the first scene.
because it was flippin sweet.
Then we just sat down for the movie.
We called the others but they didn't want to budge.
Well when we got out we compared to the two movies and Esther and Lyndsey were standing there.
It was good to see Esther again.=)
all went back to my house.
big big mistake.
my mom got all pissed and called me upstairs and yelled at me.
at least she didnt hit me
in front of them.
Then she said
get all these fucking kids home right fucking now.
And i said fine! we'll leave in 10 mins.
But she came down after about 30 seconds and herded us into the car while saying unecessary things.
I HATE crying in front of people.
I hate it more than anything.
I've only done it about twice in my life
and this was the second time.
And Eric was there for my shoulder to cry on.
Iv'e never had that before=\
Ashley was there for me too. love you so much for that.
I felt so incredibly bad about it it was my fault.
Then When Eric got home Kate was pissed because esther told her we were holding hands when we were doing nothing of the sort.
So Kate's not talking to me.
And there was a point when Eric said he couldn't hang around me anymore.
Oh well. Id rather have both of them happy than me happy....
I don't really remember the rest of the night.
I just remember my eyes stinging fucking bad because of the crying and
my arm hurts like hell now....
Well i dont know.
I fixed things with Barrie.
and i think things are slowly going uphill for Eric and Kate.
But Kate's not talking to me...
I hate finding out when she is upset from me, i hear it from everyone but her. always.
ah fuck it what ever.
Its just a stupid fucking good intention gone wrong.
I think i should just stop trying to make people happy it fucks everything up.
Sorry to everyone associated yesterday. Truly I am. I never meant to fuck anything up.
xx.itsmyfault
__dont ask about the sn. I was bored and tired leave me be__
Things that made me happy-
J o h n. He cheered me up beyond beleif last night I he's getting the biggest fucking hug when i see him tomorrow for it. thank you.