hy again
Its been a long time...so much stuff has happend and its the end of the year...ALREADY! im gonna miss the few friends i have at lycee and im going to miss my stupid little funny class... I LOVE YOU GUYS AND WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER THOSE TIMES AT LYCEE! ive done sOOOOO MANY MISTAKES THIS YEAR i dont even understand it...ive made the worst dicisions i could ever make and made the person I TRULY LOVE PRETTY MUCH HATE ME! i wish i could do this year again and be such a better, stronger, more thoughtful person but i guess i can try next year right?
Angi- somehow what happend made me stronger...i felt and do feel so bad and horrible and compleely lost. But my heart is becoming a rocky, my emotions are becoming stable, and my emotions for guys are...well NOTTTTHING! i know you said im selfish but i wasnt...do you know how hard that was telling you but i thought it was the right thing and also i was looking for comfort and reassurance bz in me i knew that was soooo very wrong. And i guess in a way that talk we had was reassurance to me. I hate how you feel...disgusted and hurt in me...writting this brings tears to my eyes. I would DIE for YOU angelena...and i ever want you to be hurt by me again! NEVER! if you feel like u need to be my babysitter and that you never want to talk to me ever again thats your choice. But let me tell you something angi, let me tell you. Youve made me stronger, youve made me understand what i was, not a good person and what i was becoming, a slut. So if you could ever find in that HUGE heart of yours a way to forgive me and not be disgusted by me bz of what i did i dont know how much that would mean to me and how much you will not regret it. But if u cant forgive me and u choose to forgive me bz i want u too then dont and im sorry...just know 2 things: Im a new person, stronger EMOTIONALLY and know that this will never happend again EVER! and that i swear!
Angi- somehow what happend made me stronger...i felt and do feel so bad and horrible and compleely lost. But my heart is becoming a rocky, my emotions are becoming stable, and my emotions for guys are...well NOTTTTHING! i know you said im selfish but i wasnt...do you know how hard that was telling you but i thought it was the right thing and also i was looking for comfort and reassurance bz in me i knew that was soooo very wrong. And i guess in a way that talk we had was reassurance to me. I hate how you feel...disgusted and hurt in me...writting this brings tears to my eyes. I would DIE for YOU angelena...and i ever want you to be hurt by me again! NEVER! if you feel like u need to be my babysitter and that you never want to talk to me ever again thats your choice. But let me tell you something angi, let me tell you. Youve made me stronger, youve made me understand what i was, not a good person and what i was becoming, a slut. So if you could ever find in that HUGE heart of yours a way to forgive me and not be disgusted by me bz of what i did i dont know how much that would mean to me and how much you will not regret it. But if u cant forgive me and u choose to forgive me bz i want u too then dont and im sorry...just know 2 things: Im a new person, stronger EMOTIONALLY and know that this will never happend again EVER! and that i swear!