Dec 15, 2005 00:06
i think i just felt myself turn 15 shades paler.
i feel as if he's just slipping away.
i feel like he can't stand my patheticness anymore.
& he just also happens to be the same guy i cried over for about an hour, crying myself to sleep.
and i feel bad about thinking/wanting this but..i feel like i just want to meet another guy.
not intended to get over him, but to see if i could ever have as strong of feelings for someone and they give it back in return.
is it possible?
did i let something go that i may regret?
is it completely let go of? on both sides??
can i even trust my own feelings now though?
if i felt like it was love before and it got me here, what am i to think???
now, it's 15 shades more pale than i already was.
love?