life is great but at the same time its hard
Well life seems to get easer and easer every passing day its so nice to ahve a home to coem to were everyone cares...life is also getting harder at the same time my brother has cancer and i am not allowed to see him my mom is living with the guy from hell and well i ahve yet to tell the one i love how i really feel and what is going on i dont care about much n e more the only thing i care about it my best friend being ok and well being healthy....i went to the Doctors the other day and found out i ahve some majore things worng with me i also seen an old friend there which was awsome i dont get to talk to her cause of her girl so i jsut looked the other way..life is so hard as it is easy and the only thing i want to turn to is drugs i wake up and my mouth waters for them my body craves them and i fight the cravings the more i want it the more my mind tells me to go get some i see what it does to the people around me and i still want it i was going to AA and shit liek that then i jsut stoped that dident help much but i am doing what i need to to stay clean but i now some day life is gonna get to out of controll and there is a chance that i go back to them and for once i hope my life keeps on the track it is going i ahve the family i always wanted the life i need the love i lack i am doing great now as far as be ok but i still ahve that drug addiction but that will be with me for the resat of my life but as long as i can controll it i will be fine.......