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[my2sadeyes]

I think that I'm pretty much done with being a drug addict.
I've gone one and a half days without any drugs or alcohol. I mean, I went from doing everything and anything every single day for months. For a while when I lived at Irma's I'd go on intense fucking coke binges paid for by my gracious hostess so I'd stay with her. Candace would get alcohol

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[godorkorgohome]

Possibly one of the most fucked "The More You Know" messages I've ever read.

Well I'm sure with the proper self-motivation (note SELF motivation. Don't rely on people to help you kick a habit. Ever) You'll either kick the drug use or at least bring it down to manageable levels. Go for a realistic goal Mal, one that works for you, that allows you to have fun but still function as a human being.

I got the same way a few years back, granted my only vice seemed to come out of a bottle. But there was a whole year period where being completely smashed on Whiskey was the thing to do. The sick thing is, people preferred me being drunk most of the time and encouraged the behavior because I was considered "life of the party". Forget the fact I was going insane because my roommates were a slob and a deadbeat respectively and my girlfriend at the time had her own shit to deal with.

But I sorted my shit out. I still drink, I never intend to stop drinking. I just have a lot more control over myself these days.

You don't need to find a higher power, or do what all those 12 steppers do, you need to do what's right for you. Fuck what everyone tells you because if you arrange your life to somebody else's satisfaction you're going to make yourself miserable.

And hey, you're young and aren't responsible for anybody but yourself right now, the fact that you're wanting to cut back on the life of excesses probably has more to do with growing up.

Wow, Nick got all support speech here. Anyway, in summation: Do what works. Do what's practical. And do what's right for you. And stop doing drugs for yourself not anybody else. Also, if you find Jesus, I'm going to smack you upside the head. Finding Jesus is for pussies.

Unless that is, you find that chocolate Jesus, then cut me a piece of his leg, I like chocolate.

[godorkorgohome]

<3 Well that's exactly what I wanted to hear right now, and no, that wasn't sarcasm for once. :-D
And THANK YOU for not giving me the "Accept Jesus as your Lord and Savior" speech 'cause that's all I've been hearing from everyone else.

[godorkorgohome]

Well I'm of the opinion that people who look to Jesus, or some other higher power as a way of solving a personal problem (Be it drinking, doing drugs, or having butt sex with choir boys) it's saying that you made such a mess of your life that you can't fix it yourself. You're already giving up your own personal fight to kick whatever habit because you're leaving it up to somebody (Even somebody that's really a popularly believed myth) to solve all your problems.

Tried and true, that's why AA people get back on the bottle, and why priests can't keep it in their pants. They look to religion to fix problems that it can't fix because these people are relying on faith and figuring they don't have to try because they believe that everything will turn out okay.